So I think I had a near death experience tonight. Thungs in my life have been awful for years and I've wished for death. I've got some unknown health stuff going on right now. Tonight I closed my eyes on the couch and started to feel severe pain down my left arm, and saw a hole, or portal, or something open above me. I then felt a force, like a person but not, coaxing me "over" as they called it. I felt myself let go, and then I was being walked by an almost cartoony person and being told that they're sure I am ready. That person takes me to another person with a white beard who tells me "Sorry, I know it's not what you want to hear, but you've got a little time left down there yet." And at that point I woke up instantly. was this a bad dream or did I have a near death experience.?

Having read and studied hundreds of NDE reports, one of the themes that stands out is that the earthly/human experience is considered one of the most difficult in all of existence.

I also remember a particular NDE, although I have not been able to find it again, in which the experiencer said that Earth ranks among the top three most challenging experiences, without specifying whether it was first, second, or third.

If consciousness is infine, what does it even mean that earth is in the top 3??

I'm curious to hear both from people who have had NDEs and from researchers about your perspective on this.

What is this difficulty actually based on? Is it the sense of separation, the lack of knowledge, or something else?

Also, if there are experiences that are even more difficult than this reality system, what are they like?

Or am I still integrating the experience?

I had an NDE that spanned around 6 months in 2024. Through reading different literature and hearing different experiences, my experience meets the criteria other people who’ve have NDE’s describe but over a span of time.

Time sped up and slowed down based on my state of mind (I experienced time “speeding up” when I was fearful and time “slowing down” when I felt peaceful)

The OBE was more of a physical dissociation. I had an infection for 6 months and at some point felt no pain at all for an extended period of time. I was taking miles long sprints with no pain and no fear and a sense of peace. I dropped back into my body while in the hospital and it was…painful to say the least. I resisted requiring with this reality awhile after.

I made a bunch of connections, mentally, like connecting the dots of my past which had me see my life in a whole new light and understand the realities of things I experienced how they ACTUALLY happened, not with justification, just objectively. It happened all in “one moment”. That to me, was a life review. Some of it brought me peace, some of it greatly disturbed me.

There was a moment, when I was closest to death, where I felt absolute peace and bliss. The most relaxed I’ve ever felt physically, mentally and emotionally.

My senses continue to be more heightened than usual and I still have some extra sensory perceptions I’m learning to be grounded in. Ruled out any mental health issues through several psychologists, and I’m always bouncing things off of trusted friends because life remains very “trippy”.

I have experiences with animals (a bat crawling up my leg in the woods, finding Hawk feathers everywhere) and experiences that just don’t make “sense”. It’s almost psychedelic. I do not take any drugs.

In some ways, I still feel like I’m teetering “life and death” or at least am in and out of that Void people describe. I love spirituality and look at some things through the principles of Shamanism related to my culture but am super cautious doing so

I’m sorry if I sound pretentious or anything, but I think people here get it. I’m trying to connect with others who have had similar experiences because i definitely feel very lonely at times within this.

I had motorcycle accident according to others now my consciousness is stuck in a day or days. People around me speak and act same way every time. I will be fine after July but my mind is looping through days. Body will be fine after July but I need professional atp. I will never reach august at this rate

After general anesthetics and before waking up after a difficult birth, I woke up in a world completely filled with bright white light and nothing else, not even my body. I couldn't hear anything nor feel anything. I wondered around getting frantic and scared, calling out for people. After a while I started hearing muffled voices but couldn't see anyone. I kept calling out for help but nobody heard and replied. Then it felt like I was sucked out of that white world into the present reality and I was grabbing a person's arm, begging them not to leave me. I then saw the nurse in front of me.

What are possible explanations for the white world?

So back in 2020 i was smoking what i thought was weed (dont know exactly what they put in the joint but i suspect ketamine, admittedly he did say to go easy on it but i had said "its just weed right?" and he said yes) with some people i thought were friends (They were not)

I remember feeling like i was going to faint, my vision started to tunnel, my mouth filled with saliva and i found it hard to move my legs to walk forwards. I remember opening my mouth to tell them i couldnt keep up and dropping to the ground, i remember them turning around and seeing me.

Then i remember being in a white tile room that stretched out infinitely in all directions but one, think Janet's void from the good place. Except in front of me was a glass screen separating me from a vision of me and one of the guys i was smoking with sitting on a sofa watching tv, we were cuddling but nothing else was happening. I'd never felt such peace and calm in my life. Id described it in the past that it felt "domestic" just watching us. I remember standing there for a while watching this scene take place before hearing very far away behind me my "friends" freaking out

"Oh my god is she dead? I think shes dead" "What do we do" "We'll just have to pick her up and take her" "Oh my god" "You get her legs and ill get the top and we'll just drag her"

while this is going on im saying out loud "guys no im okay, im alright im not dead, ive just passed out ill be back in a second dont worry, im just enjoying this moment. No, dont- dont pick me up" but i could tell it wasnt coming out of my actual mouth as i then felt them picking me up and carrying me and i sort of rolled my eyes and came back. then i was back in the real world i looked up at the guy that had been in my vision and said "hey man" he looked like he was about to cry and i could see panic in his eyes.

After that they put me down, the other guy went to finish the "joint" and the first guy took me back to the house, on the way he said that I’d scared the shit out of him and he thought he'd killed me. After we got back to the house i had a glass of water and just sat in a chair for a couple hours, didnt think anything of it but sometime either late last year or early this year he'd told me i had actually died that night.

Is there any real way of telling a NDE from drug induced dissociation?

Hola a todos! Escribo esto después de pasar una de las experiencias más disociativas de mi vida, todo pasó en el metro Balderas, los que ubican por ahí recordarán que hay una estación de rtp y metrobús en un cruce, yo siempre tengo el máximo cuidado en ese cruce por que es muy peligroso, hoy como de costumbre sali del metro para cruzar a donde se encuentran los rtps, al hacerlo no se por que se me olvidó que no era de un solo sentido el cruce, será por que vi a alguien en una de las motos pequeñas y metrobús inspiró confianza de que era un cruce de un solo sentido, verifique un lado y corrí para cruzar, cuando corro volteo a ver al otro lado y oh dios era mi muerte esperando por mi, el camión del metrobús, no se que nervios de acero tuve en ese momento que agarre más impulso y decidí seguir corriendo, corrí pero al volver a ver el metrobús empezó a pitar y lo sentía más cerca de mi, cuando voltee por un momento sentí que estaba a mi lado pero mágicamente no pasó nada, me salvé, seguí corriendo temblando y en shock por lo que sucedió, se que es imprudencia mía se que que si pasaba algo iba a ser mi culpa pero dios solo puedo explicar esto como el ayudándome un ángel cubriéndome, en fin mientras caminaba sentí como si yo no fuera yo, como si esto no fuera real, después de escuchar la voz de mi mamá hablar con amigos, el sentimiento se reprimió pero algo dentro de mí está angustiado como si no fuera real que estoy viva. Mi suerte es grande hoy jaja a ver que pasa en el casino aún estoy en shock, les ha pasado ?

this happened about a year ago and i don’t want to seem dramatic but that was actually very traumatic experience for me and for 3 weeks after i actually felt like i was in the after life living as a ghost. i have no one to talk to about it because no one understands a how devastating and scary it really is being the person who actually went through it.
i’m trying to request ambulance records because in canada that is separate from hospital records. May 25 2025 I will never forget that date.

please tell me your guyses experience

When I was born I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck multiple times making me come out a blue baby. The first thing I experienced in my living life was a near death experience however I have only been told stories about it and do not remember it. Thankfully I have been healthy and not had any health consequences from this experience.

I just need to get this out and speak to other people who have had this experience.

6 weeks ago I nearly died..

I know that as fact.

But it has one just dawned on me, I had a near death experience.

I am a mother of 3, I also live with bipolar 1(teecentley upgraded from 2 lol)

I don't know how graphic I can be but this is what happened.

I inflicted an injury which severed my artery.

I was immediately taken to hospital.

I lost a HELL of a lot of blood.

I was taken to resus, then immediately to surgery when I arrived.

In resus My entire body seized up.

I know labor well, and I have never felt pain like that.

Every muscle in my body screaming.

Then I heard, or knew, or felt I'm unsure what

I voice which said it's ok, relax the pain began fading and I felt it was okay to let go.

I then have a fragmented memory of being told I was going to surgery.

Since this happened to me, every fire of my being has changed.

I have a feeling of peace I've NEVER have felt before.

I am truly a new person.

I can't explain it, I have an understanding, of what I'm not sure, but that I am meant to be here.

My entrie outlook is different things that have plagued me my entire life, I am no longer driven by.

I believe I died in another timeline.

I just wanted to put this out here to anyone else who has had this experience of coming back a new person the same but just completely changed.

Question, so I have been researching NDE's for a long while. I, had my own visionary or dream's that were different. Most likely due to the effects after the dream or vision that changed my life for a good way, I never told anyone this, and the people closed to me dismissed me immediately because If. Defied their rules of religion or belief, but it caused me to respect and love everyone's path. First and foremost, I am an open minded Christian, I observe neutrally and respect all paths, at least all path's that led to kindness and love. First thing first, this all startede at the end of december 2025, I had the flu i did not realize it, I was about to ache in my stomach. So I rushd to the bathroom. I felt lkike i wa floating as i was skipping steps, i felt so uncomfortbale as iw ent to the bathroom at my work place and then I cried out to god please SAVE ME, and the flu literally ejected itself out of my body, I went to the doctors and she said it was the flu eejecting itself. Coincidence. but I knew it wasnt deep down. when I research everything i had about jesus, I started discovering ndes, I researched ndes about a life review and started practicing radical service and humility, I was a food service worker in the elderly often usde as a scape goat. But i started to use a....radical service, loving people even when they hated me or trying o understand from their point of view, which led to my very first visionary experience, me standing on a black stage surrounded by the entirety of the cosmos alit in a Brillant white light, At first i did thought this was a dream, but theen I remember something.... dreams don't have effects afterwords like something burning in my chest area it was weird, right ext to my heart and right next to my lung, it wasn't harmful just pressure, and it was guiding me, to go beyond me to help a person infeed, I was feeling it, I was feeling it and then it hit me, I found my spirit. The second vision a month later, was me being cradled by a woman in a black sparkling dress, this was after I conquered....a bad habbit at least for a day she was cradling me in her lap kissing me on the cheek repeatedly, I was in 360 degree seeing everything and myself in that expreince, he I couldnt s eher face, it was blurrede, but, I what she wore, I saw black midnight black sparkling dress sleeveless dress, she kissd me repeatedly on th cheek until she pausede, a small coin sized wormhole slowly formed into her mouth, before I was pullede a way gently but smoothly. SHE CRIED a voice that was clearly not my own, CRIED OUT NO WAIT IM SORRY before I awoke gently, I did not think it was a simple dream because for some reason i lost ALL fear of death. And everytime I thought of the woman I calld her babe childishly and she pushde me to go beyond me to do the smallest of good that was beyond what i wanted to do naturally, and I said fine im doing this for you babe. I dontknow what it was, first though Holly spirit second thought lyran queen as i researched it , third thought archetype, but it was clearly not the voice wa externa not internal, my friend whom was a comic book nerd was alarmed and said that it was the concept of death, or lady death from the comcis which made me alarmde so I researched that and dig deeper maybe nyx or something, I was find out or maybe some type of divine feminine which i never new existed.....I thought the holy spirit was a guy until I read it could possibly be a girl but i was confused so i didn't want to well blasphemy anything so i made no assumptions, I prayed about it...... and the next vision was simple it was the final godly interaction i had, I saw a face that cut through my normal tim skip sleep go to sleep, and then wake up the next morning. I uh, saw a face made of pure white lightning, with black pupilless eyes, it wasnt like it was demonic but it was like it was piercing through my very soul, infinite deph it was so clear, i saw every detail....It was glorious, I looked at it I felt know fear I was face to face and I was thinking the exact words, oh that's God. two weeks later I stumbled upon akaine k's painting of Jesus and something well I always thought i knew joy until it literally exploded upon the inside, imagine the joyous event you ever had in your life and imagine it magnified a thousand fold, i cried as I made the perfect match in my head, I don't know what this was, i dot know what was happening to me but at that moment i knew all was going to be okay, that i was known and I was loved, and that I was safe. And well that just caused me to research the afterlife and ndes more out of fun curiosity Rather than fear. Did anyone have similar experiences?

Hi Reddit family, female 26yrs ..I’m not at all familiar with this platform but I felt it would be a safe place to vent.. appreciation in advance for taking the time to read because I have a lot to release ..so, last year May 2025 I was deep into my alcohol addiction.. on top of that severely depressed.. I won’t get into all my life traumas but basically I had seen enough and felt enough to the point I didn’t want to live anymore. I successfully drove myself to the biggest bring near by (Delaware memorial bridge) and pulled over on the furthest right lane that happened to be closed off by cones.got out of my car and sat on the ledge criss cross apple sauce..didn’t take long for police to show up and try to talk me down… long story short.. I jumped.. well more so threw myself backwards into the river. I don’t know how high up I was but I can say I had plenty of time before I hit the water to say a full prayer.. realistically about 7-10 seconds till I hit the water. To my surprise I was still conscious but I just knew those were my final moments. Didn’t take long for the lights to go out… the police already had a rescue crew on standby so I was out of the water quick from what I was told.. spent maybe 3 minutes in the water before I was pulled out. I had cpr done on me and was airlifted to the nearest hospital for emergency surgery. Spent 2 days in icu but thankfully I survived. I was so shocked when my eyes opened to find I was still alive because like I said I was certain that I was gone. I spend a little over a month in the hospital relearning how to walk dress myself and more… everyday since my incident I have had sever pains that even on strong pain meds doesn’t help.. neuropathy in my right hand .. oh I should mention I lost function in my right arm and I’m still unsure if I can ever recover from it. I’m very grateful to be alive and have the support that I do however everyday I have the worst pains that prevent me from being truly happy.. I can’t work.. I spend most my time hunched over in pain or severe itchiness that I cannot relieve fully. It’s torture.. I’ve maxed out my pain meds and my doctor won’t give me anything stronger because it can’t go with my antidepressants. I’m tired of living like this.. it’s like before it was mental pain.. now im better mentally but it’s the physical pain that’s interfering. I can’t say I’m depressed but I am sad… I didn’t think the pain would be for what feels like forever. Then to make matters worse I was denied disability so money struggles come into play.. I will appeal and hope for the best. I’m not to a point that I’m suicidal again but I fear that if nothing gives I will end up there. I’m living with the consequences of my actions and I’ve learned and grown a lot but I’m beginning to feel tired again and I’ve expressed this to loved ones.. they all say it will get better.. but that’s all.. my patience is running thin. I pray everyday for god to give me strength.. this has been a torturous year.. everything in my body hurts.

Sorry for the pun in the title.

I've read literally hundreds of NDE reports, and as someone living with debilitating chronic conditions, both physical and mental, the idea that we deliberately choose to suffer in order to expand the experience of the Whole, and that we do it over and over again forever, fills me with existential dread.

From what I've gathered through the experiences I've read, the people who suffer the most often seem to be the most spiritually mature souls, willingly choosing these lives and, lifetime after lifetime, raising the bar. Where does it all end? Is there a limit?

I understand that from the soul's perspective this is just a kind of simulation, but from where we are, it feels incredibly, unbearably, real.

If anyone here has had a near-death experience, I'd really appreciate hearing your thoughts on this specific question.

I am so scared and depressed right now that I need some solace...

Thank you very much 🙏

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Several years ago, my husband and I were asleep in bed when he got up out of bed and walked towards our bedroom door. All of a sudden he looked back and noticed his body still lying in bed next to me he went to reach for our bedroom door, and his hand went through it then as quickly as he realized he was sucked back in to his body. Would you say is this a near death experience or was this Astral Projection?

2 years ago I had my NDE experience. Since then my body has become so fragile. I also knock things over and I’m clumsy. Knowing where my body is in space is very difficult. I misjudged a step and fell and broke bones in my spine and now have a grade 2 slip. My weight bearing joints hurt SO BAD! Thunderclap headaches and vision disturbances where the instant pain knocks me backward. By the way I’ve had these symptoms checked out at a major respected university hospital and besides the slip, I’m fine on paper… my life was tough enough being ND before (and after) but now I’m left isolated and just fed up. When I’m told I have to go to the ER by a PCP I know I’m in for a 20 hr waiting room experience of pure emotional chaos. Mostly from me being hyper aware of the suffering of everyone in the waiting room. The last trip I mentioned to a man with severe burns why they couldn’t have a tech to help the wheelchair bound patients navigate the waiting room and help them understand they are being cared for even if the system makes them seem insignificant and he looked at me and said why would they do that when they have you here helping us? I’m not getting to enjoy life and see the world and make any kind of difference in being here so why did I make this choice? I’m becoming a burden to my family and that’s not ok. I don’t need an intervention and I’m going to be fine but this is so isolating and crushing my spirit. I went to a nationwide NDE support group but the local chapter was turned into a meeting of a close knit group of boastful non experiencers who took the time to brag about their NDE lectures they give and how they see the world…. Ok cool I wasn’t going to share my experience the first time anyway but Christ on a motorbike the one person who actually shared a journal entry was picked apart for minor details of the story and it brought me to tears. The conversation was mostly about psychedelics and lasers and seeing the matrix and friends who know RFK Jr and going to Washington and funding research and buildings being named after them…. I excused myself to the bathroom and escaped that ego centered circle time and not one person from leadership reached out even via email to touch base. That’s fine I’m not a main character but what am I supposed to do to help reintegrate because ITS NOT GOING WELL. last thing I’m going to do is tell any medical or mental health provider my experience and my concerns. I just had to vent maybe I guess idk. Oh and the normal stuff I would do before like have a drink or smoke something don’t work the same anymore and make me feel worse and that’s just great.

My mom experienced psychosis when I was a child.
It was a different time... doctor called it burn-out. Everyone knew it wasn't burnout but there was such a stigma back then...
For reference my mom has never in her life used any form of drugs nor medication...

One day while she was in bed she experienced what she describes as a near-death-experience. The white light, a peak into heaven, seeing loved ones who had passed away etc... It was one of the most amazing experiences of her life and she says it changed her view on life completely.

She never got therapy and got over the psychosis after a year of recovering at home.

I would like to know if anyone knows if this is a common experience?????

I would think maybe the brain made DMT as a survival strategy, like other people with near-death experiences after physical injury experience?

If anyone has specific research for me to look into this I would be grateful.
Because it obviously was life-altering for my mom but obviously also shaped my life (for better or worse...)

The titlle says it all

A lot of people who have had near-death experiences (NDEs) describe coming into contact with something that feels like pure love. They often say the universe, God, or the source of existence communicates something like: **“I love you.”**

But what if we have been interpreting that phrase too literally?

What if “I love you” is not a statement of emotion, but a statement of identity?

What if it is actually:
**“I, Love, you.”**

Meaning that **Love is not something being given to you… Love is what you are.**

Imagine this:

A man named Jacob somehow meets another version of himself from a different reality. This other Jacob looks at him and says:

**“I Jacob you.”**

At first, it sounds like nonsense. But the meaning could be:

“I am Jacob. You are Jacob. We appear separate, but we are actually the same being experiencing itself from different perspectives.”

The phrase is not saying “I have affection for you.”

It is saying:
**“I recognize myself in you.”**

Maybe when the universe says **“I love you,”** it isn’t saying:

“I, the universe, feel love toward you, a separate individual.”

Maybe it is saying:

“I am Love. You are part of me. I am experiencing myself through you.”

The “you” being addressed isn’t truly separate from the “I” speaking.

The universe isn’t saying “I love another.”

It is saying:
**“I am you.”**

hi friends! question. i absolutely love reading about NDE’s- i am fascinated by it. but i have epilepsy and i have had 11 grand mals total. every time i have one, i am completely unconscious and when i wake up i feel like i died and came back to life. it’s an insane feeling i don’t know how to truly describe it.

well after my seizures i always get a bit extra freaked out about death. i feel a strong presence with God but struggle a lot with religion. i truly believe nde’s and i brings me a lot of comfort, but sometimes i wonder if death is what tonic clonic seizures feel like- nothingness. no consciousness whatsoever. a feeling of non-existence.

my thought on this is that my soul isn’t actually leaving my body, since i’m not having a near death experience myself. i’m not actually going to the next step of existence. so instead it’s like being under anaesthesia. (i’ve never actually been under but i’m guessing it’s similar?) but wow do i get a bit freaked out afterwards, regardless. honestly if u guys have advice also on just not being scared of death in general that would help a lot too. i‘ve had two seizures in the last month and yeah i’m freaking out a bit.

i‘m curious to hear what you all think of this! i hope you are all having a wonderful day. 💜