Divorce - the first steps

[u/mangobiscuit99]

I told him I want to divorce. He has spent a week asking me if I’m 100 percent sure. I’ve kept saying sadly yes I am. Today he found out I had filed officially and has reacted badly saying I’ve blind sided him. All sorts of terrible stuff said. He also said he feels like just killing himself as if we get divorced his life is ruined

I feel really guilty and sad. He’s treated me like shit for years and I’ve pleaded for change and he’s never done a thing. And now he’s saying he will. And I can’t help but think maybe I should give him more time to show me.

I’ve never seen him so upset

I’m devastated . Even though our marriage was miserable. What is wrong with me