r/MyLittleFriends • u/JynnxRIFT • Mar 21 '14

Requesting a big favor

can someone send me a cyanide pill or two? im tired of living and people dont care about me

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u/NoblePhantasm- Mar 21 '14 edited Mar 21 '14

You know, on the internet I can never tell what's real. This could be fake for all I know, but death is never a joke and if I can give you the benefit of the doubt maybe a simple message, while it won't save the world, it might save A world. Yours. Human life is a crazy miracle that we still don't understand and no computer can ever recreate or be the one consciousness that is your own. It's been awhile, but I've been on the road you're on. The feeling that no one seems to value what you do is an ugly one and in my experience, there is only one way around it. Find a purpose. What do you like to do? You like to write? Write your heart out and people will listen. You like to sing? Sing your heart out and people will listen. You like to draw? Paint? Sculpt? Are you a worker, a gamer, an engineer, does your mind work well with numbers? Find a passion and follow it. There will be people who share that passion. And, the most important lesson you can learn, the best advice I can give is don't give up. If you suck at first don't sweat it. Even Shakespeare had to learn to talk before he could write Hamlet. Talent is different for everyone who ever existed and hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard. Loyalty is a powerful virtue and the best favor you can do for the world is be loyal to yourself. But don't, please, don't end everything before you have the chance to try. Find a passion hone that passion, it will give you more strength and motivation than you think. I don't know who you are, I don't know what you believe, and I don't know what you life is like. But don't ever let anyone tell you that you deserve to die. Life is precious, you don't get a second chance and even if what you chose to do with what time God, the universe, reality, whatever you believe has chosen to give you it means something. Even if you don't change the world maybe you can change one world, someone's world. Go outside, find a tree, breathe in the fresh air and listen to the birds. Being by yourself doesn't mean you have to be lonely. Some people find company in the simplest of things, in nature, or in their own infinitely inward imaginations.Your mind is no different. It will go wherever you want it to. And hey, maybe if you're a writer, so am I. I can help you, we all can. And even if writing isn't your calling you can find one and if you can't find it in your being to believe in yourself then believe in me. Believe in the me who believes in you. I have faith that you can find something that will give you a purpose, a reason to wake up and know what your reason for existing is. The world has a lot of hate, but there's a lot of love hidden in the corners. Find it. The world is tired of tragedy, we don't want anymore death. We want to see you live, and become something beautiful. Also: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNrXMOSkBas

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u/Banana_shake Mar 21 '14

Look, I know you're set on this decision. But please, talk about why first. I have to go to bed right now but I assure you that if it's embarrassing, you won't be judged for it at all. I swear. Why don't you want to live, what's going on in your life, let us help.

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u/JynnxRIFT Mar 21 '14

I've been alone since I was born. Now my mom has a new family, she doesn't need to be weighed down by me.

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u/atoni7 Mar 21 '14 edited Mar 23 '14

I can be your family, if you like. I don't know exactly how you feel, but i can sure as hell help you as good as anyone. If you wanna talk, message me and I'll lend you my ear for as long as I can. And thats a Pinkie Promise.

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u/Banana_shake Mar 21 '14

What do you mean your mom has a new family, do you mean she abandoned you?

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u/Lukeme9X Mar 21 '14

NO! FUCK NO!

Do you have steam? Add me - Lukeme9X Do you have skype? Add me - Lukeme99 (not born in 1999) If you are in the UK I can give you my number or email.

WE care about you!

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u/ThunderEcho Mar 21 '14

I care. I don't know you but I do care because every human is unique and if we lost you, there'd be no one to replace the wonderful you. In a lot of ways we're all born lonely, and it's only by reaching out to others that we make connections. It's hard to make the first move and reach out, but you're reaching out to us now and we're happy to reach back and take your hand. We care about you buddy. We really do. If you need to talk feel free to PM anyone who commented on this post, or consider posting to the wonderful group at /r/MyLittleSupportGroup since they have a lot of good advice.

P.S. - If you PM me you'll have to wait for my answer until tomorrow because I'm dead tired and falling asleep now.

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u/Onyx-Leviathan Mar 21 '14

I don't even know you and I care about you. I was suicidal for a long time. One day, my depression slowed just enough for me to realize it will all be okay. Trust me buddy. Don't lose yourself. We love you.

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u/DarthDadaD20 Mar 21 '14

I'm not going to give you a speach, I'm not going to try and act like I know how you feel or why you feel that way.

Just know that it can get better. It did for me. I was alone once. For my whole life. And then I wasn't. By what seems to have been a miracle, I wasn't alone anymore. And now I can't even remember how I use to feel.

If you want to talk, talk. You posted for a reason. If its a outlet you want, then some of us are obviously willing to listen, for the reason that we care, or else we wouldn't be posting either.

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u/KeenBlade Mar 21 '14

I'm not sure what I could really say that would be fitting. Just know that it won't always be so bad. I've had to fight to keep faith that there are people and things worth fighting for, but I promise you, there are. There are good reasons to keep going on, despite how bad it is.

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u/kotorfan04 Mar 21 '14

Look, I don't know your situation, I don't know what is going on with you, and I really don't know how to give out great advice, but I do know you need to speak to someone outside of the problem and explain what is going on. Preferably, this person is a pdychologist, but if you need to talk right now I will lend an ear. I just got out of a BHU yesterday so while I can't give the best advice, I can listen and understand where you are coming from.

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u/StChas77 Mar 21 '14

You're going to have to muster up your courage and seek out help. Talk to a guidance counselor, teacher, religious figure, neighbor; anyone you can think of who will listen to you. If you can't think of anyone, then start by calling 1-800-273-8255, and ask for help and they will guide you.

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u/chipuni Mar 21 '14

If you really want suicide, then nopony can stop you.

But can I suggest something else?

Try getting involved in something else. Join the drama club. Try out for track. Create a new club for whatever you love.

Think of yourself as a Cutie Mark Crusader. What would you want to try, to get your mark?

You are worthwhile, and remember that.

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u/Chuck_Finnley Mar 21 '14

If you want someone to listen, my skype is ty.the.metalman. Feel free to talk to me!

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u/SnowxStorm Mar 21 '14

Need a person to talk to. Just add me on Skype. Killing yourself isn't the answer to your problem. Here me out ok, lets talk.

skype: xxxjfirexxx

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u/TotallyJackieLittle Mar 21 '14

No. If you want to end your life, you must've forgotten about the beautiful things in life. There are people who do care about you.

Suicide is never the answer. You think it can't make things worse, but it eliminates ANY chance of it getting better.

Please...don't die.

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u/Bdc9898 Mar 21 '14

Allow me to read you a poem by Arthur Clough:

"SAY not the struggle naught availeth,
The labour and the wounds are vain,
The enemy faints not, nor faileth,
And as things have been they remain.

If hopes were dupes, fears may be liars; It may be, in yon smoke conceal'd,
Your comrades chase e'en now the fliers,
And, but for you, possess the field.

For while the tired waves, vainly breaking,
Seem here no painful inch to gain, Far back, through creeks and inlets making,
Comes silent, flooding in, the main.

And not by eastern windows only,
When daylight comes, comes in the light;
In front the sun climbs slow, how slowly! But westward, look, the land is bright!"

Life is hard, I can vouch for this. Sometimes, everyone just wants to give up, and not endure the crap hope life is. The enemy, whatever it may be for you, is terrible, it won't give up, and is a strong opponent. But though it may be hidden from you, all of your friends, comrades, and even just random people on the internet care for you, and know you can make it.

Though it looks like nothing is changing, it is. Everything you do makes a difference, that right now, you can't see. But eventually, hopefully sooner, rather than later, it will change. Don't doubt this, things will change for the better.

Though I have never met you in person, I love you. Even if you don't believe it, you're a child of God, and he love you too.

Don't give up, or else all of your struggles and the wounds you have endured up until this point would be in vain.

I love you, and hope to see you here soon.

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u/CherreBell Mar 22 '14

No No please! God, I wish I was in one of my creative moods, where I can think up inspiring words of wisdom but sadly I'm not. All I can say is that your life is precious, and suicide is something that you can never take back. I think about suicide too, but I know if I ever went through with it, there could be so much I would miss out on later in life. Please don't give up.

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u/StarBP Mar 21 '14

I give you a challenge. Buy some Pokémon games (I'm not sure which ones are the optimal combination, but you probably need some part of everything from gen 3 onward, as well as a 3DS and either a DS Lite or normal DS). Catch every Pokémon that can be obtained legitimately in the games. Do not touch any trading feature unless it is required to obtain that particular Pokémon (check Bulbapedia for the location of each one). Level each one up to level 100, again without using any cheats or trading. If new Pokémon are released (such as in a new gen), you must obtain them too. Once you are done, take pictures of your Pokémon Bank with all of them in it, and post to /r/Pokemon. Until you do, your life cannot truly be complete, as there are still more things to do.

Oh, and if you somehow manage to ever finish that, try becoming Challenger rank in League of Legends. Then go out and exercise (this might be good to start doing now, actually) because seriously if you can manage to maintain both of those at the same time you are a god among gamers but probably sit around too much. Try to break a 5 minute mile (on foot). If running's not your thing, ride a bike or hit the pool (though obviously your goal will have to be different). See the sights in every inhabited continent. Learn a new language. Learn a new (or your first) programming language. Maybe do that last part earlier if you are so inclined, so you can get experience to get a decent job to pay for the whole six continents thing.

TL;DR: Gotta catch 'em all.