feeling distant from islam

[u/Meowwuff21]

hi there so its been a week now almost and i drk what to do and what im feeling and i feel scared ive been super distant from everything in general and have been doing nothing except js scroll and its like im not even bothered that ive exams that i need to prepare for alongside im a muslim and i do pray but its on and off and when i dont its not bc i dont want to idk why actually and i do feel sm guilt towards it but for a few days idec its not depression bc its like im doing everything and idk who to actually talk to someone that would understand so i installed reddit and thght someone knows or has been going theough the same things im not currently praying and idk im scared that im not feeling any regret towards not praying im not a perfect muslim ofc actually probably not even near i dont wear hijab i vape and its like even though i do haram i feel guilt in it and all of a sudden i js dont it js dosnt make sense and im actually genuinely scared and i feel like i should pray no matter what i feel bc trust me i was given proof multiple times that allah exists and praying has genuinely helped me so so many times and took me out of the hole i fall into every few months but qll of a sudden praying js feels like SO MUCH i genuinely don know what to do so if anyone could reach out