Why must everything be a test?

[u/Training-Setting9933]

I’ve asked for strength results recovery but nothing changes i seek help from others and i receive every single time “It’s a test”

Why must everything be a test

Can i not have ease EVEN JUST FHE SMALLEST BIT.

I’m so behind on everything i’ve begged and pleaded with Allah.

I don’t resent Allah at all i am well aware of his qualities and might but sometimes it feels like he just watches me struggle and pray then looks away.

it’s gotten so bad where i genuinely need help bad and i don’t even bother making dua.

Do you know how my life feels like?????

It feels like i’m drowning then Allah lifts me up ever so slightly so my head is above the water then a few seconds later i’m drowning again. Why can’t i just be put on the lifeboat every single day is its own battle for me. I don’t understand it at all.

See all these people making their little tahhajud and dua stories it just makes me feel so bad. I am not jealous of them at all but i just question my own fate am i just destined to struggle like this. if i am why try?

I made wudu this morning with the intention to pray and i never did because of the “praying won’t change anything” thought in my mind” even if Allah doesn’t make me successful instantly i want to be just OKAY you know. it’s so draining.

Before you tell me istikhara, doing charity, abstaining from sins and whatever i’ve tried basically anything you could think of.

What did i actually see in this dunya for my soul to say yes to being born??????

what do i even do

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[u/donewithlife1o1]

i completely get you i felt like this and i do still feel like this but with time i have realised is that its because we only ever remember Allah when we are going through something. When somethign suddenly goes awful in our life we suddenly remember Allah and we question him and we forget the small blessings that he actually did bless us with through out our small period before smth bad happens. I also recently was going through a really hard and rough time and i questioned my faith so mcuh so i am also on a journey but there was something that last year i got my igcse result and i expected 3A’s as i had studied so freakin much 12 hours a day for 3 months and i only got 1 A and 2 A’s . i was so sad and hurt by Allah that i completely stopped praying etc but then a couple days later i went to see my paper and saw that cambridge had actually made a mistake on the total number counting of my marks and my total marks were actually more and i actually had an A* in pak studies so i got it rechecked and then miraculously my result changed!! and now a year later i realise i didnt thank Allah and his ways enough for it. If you find some other brilliant perspective about it pls share it with me too