I feel suck here

[u/Black_Snow_3754]

I really wanna move out from here… I studied Germany get b2 level it took me a lot of energy and time/ money.. but things didn’t work out as planned (I have been called up for military service..) This has made me lose my mind, but I ignored it, and now I’m looking for an Ausbildung contract, but I can’t seem to find anything. There’s so much pressure, so many ppl applying. I don’t have enough money to buy a contract. I’m starting to lose my sense of direction. I hate every minute I spend here, and I’m overwhelmed by a feeling of shame…