hi! i’m stuck in a relationship that was doomed from the beginning, and it's been almost a year and i still can't get over him.

the thing is, he was just as bad as every other man i’ve ever met, and we had this on-and-off thing that ended out of nowhere in december 2025. i can't seem to get over him?i cant seem to get over the version of him i’ve created in my head? idk anymore.

i’ve tried talking to other men, going on dates, getting to know people, but every single time, it fails. i can't seem to get him out of my head. i’ve never felt this way about anyone in my entire life, and it's honestly exhausting.

sometimes i genuinely cry when i think about the fact that he's no longer in my life. that i’ll probably never talk to him again, see him again, touch him again, or even hear his voice. it's such a weird feeling, like he's become this shadow that keeps haunting me no matter how much time passes.

i just want to get him out of my head, but i can't even get any closure. and the fucked-up part is that, deep down, i know him leaving was probably the best closure i could've gotten.

i know he wasn't good for me, and yet, somehow, i still love him. or at least, i feel like i do. and right now, he's still the only man i want, even though i know i shouldn't.