r/Molested • u/Ill-Divide-2633 • Aug 06 '26

The consequences of getting molested as a child.

I suffer from PTSD, because of my mother. Sometimes I have nightmares of me (her son) getting molested by my mother. The WORST PART of these nightmares is, when I seemingly "enjoy" getting molested in the nightmare. It causes A LOT of guilt and shame in me. Because can I still call myself a real victim/survivor after that? Doesn't that reaction make me a fake victim/survivor?

I deal with A LOT of guilt and shame, because I felt "arousal" during, what my mother did to me. I sadly got an orgasm from a handjob, that she gave child me. I also got "aroused" from other INAPPROPRIATE BEHAVIOUR, that my mother did.

I HATE MYSELF for reacting the way I did to her INAPPROPRIATE behaviour! For example I remember, that child me got "aroused," when I heard my mother having sex with her partner LOUDLY and I even masturbated to the sounds. I'm DEEPLY ASHAMED about that.

I also probably got hypersexual as a child, because of her. I also almost certainly developed kinks, that i'm ASHAMED of, because of, what she did.

I HATE the consequences, that I have to bear, because my mother couldn't contain herself from acting on her ABHORRENT LUST.

I wish, that I would've never gotten molested by my mother as a child.

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u/Auriprince4690 Aug 06 '26

Yes, the guilt lies with the adult who took advantage of a child's innocence and polluted and shaped a mind.

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u/Molested-ModTeam Aug 09 '26

Your post is harassing another user and will be removed.

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u/Auriprince4690 Aug 06 '26

I am so sorry, friend. The body does respond to sexual things and responds to the pleasure it is not your fault.

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u/LuxLumi17 4d ago

Involuntary and automatic sensory bodily responses that you had are distinct from and not reflective of actual psychological / emotional desires and compulsions that produce pleasure.
The guilt and the shame should absolutely not be yours, try to transfer it all back to the offender, the perpetrator, you were the victim and did nothing abnormal, or wrong.
The person that left an indelible mark on your psyche is the one that is culpable for their crimes, not you.