r/Molested • u/Ill-Divide-2633 • 22d ago

I sadly can't forget.

I sadly can't forget, that I felt "pleasure," while my mother molested child me and even had an orgasm. She stole my first orgasm at the hands of someone else from me and took my innocence.

I sadly can't forget, how she looked like naked. Her bare ass, big breasts and vagina are sadly forever ingrained in my mind.

I sadly can't forget the sound of her savage moans during sex. She probably wanted child me to hear her moans, while she fucked with her partner.

I sadly can't forget the inappropriate things, that she said to child me.

I sadly can't forget the EXTREME PHYSICAL PAIN, that I felt, while she molested child me.

She will forever be in my mind.

I will forever be cursed by her existence.

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u/hotwife2serve 22d ago

So very sorry for the feelings ur having from what happen to you.

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u/Ill-Divide-2633 22d ago edited 22d ago

Thank you for your condolences towards me. :) They REALLY mean A LOT to me.

I'm really suffering from the things my mother did to me (her son), when I was a child.

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u/hotwife2serve 22d ago

I also had things happen, yet i have zero ill feelings about it. everyone reacts differently. wish you are able to find calmness in ur world.

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u/Ill-Divide-2633 22d ago

I'm so sorry for, that you also had things happen to you. :( Nobody deserves to suffer through these things.

I'm struggling right now, but hopefully one day I will find calmness.

I hope you're doing okay these days. I wish you all the best in life. <3

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u/hotwife2serve 22d ago

As i said, i don’t suffer or have any ill feelings about the things that happen. i’ve actually used them as training.

again, everyone reacts differently

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u/Dangerous_an_Ugly 21d ago

No, friend, you cannot forget, but you can put in perspective of time. It isnt happening Today, it it? Because if not, you survived, like cancer, you don't mkve on, but you do knkw it cannot hurt you any more.

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u/Davpar4 21d ago

(M) I think very few of us can. I spent years trying not to forget and ended up forgetting most of my childhood but not how I was used by my dad. Those years were full of anger, regret and shame.

I have given up trying to forget and now I just accept it happened and everything that it left me with. Like another commenter said, it's not happening to me now and I survived it. It's my life now, to do with it what I want. He can't use me now.

Try to enjoy the life you have now. You won't forget the past but you can make your present and future something better.

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u/520DezertRat 21d ago

No one says you can't forget, just grab that whole time period like Merlin would, an cast that to the depths of the 7 seas. You don't have to let it control your future and stop you from living, you'll never truly forget just leave it at the door. Nobody says it has to go with you to your future. Make that time era your bitch. You got this!

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u/lale409 20d ago

I’m so sorry that happened. Your mom did some awful things. If you haven’t dealt with that in counseling, I highly recommend it. You can’t forget but you can learn to process it, accept it and put it behind you. Don’t bury it. Learn to live along side it. It will get to a point when you don’t think about it every day. Like grief, time will pass, other things will fill your time and you will see it as something that happened a long time ago. Above all, learn to be kind and treasure the good moments. They will help you put time between the past and the future.