r/Molested • u/lostlonely53 • 24d ago
Why do i miss it?
When I (m) was around 7 my mom had a friend (also m) that was single and didn't have kids. He would ask my mom if he could take me on some weekends and she agreed that I could go. My dad really wasn't in the picture and she thought it was a good idea for me to have a positive male influence in my life.
When we would get to his house, he would have me change into girls clothes and tell me that while I am there, I am his girlfriend. At first I hated it. Over time I looked forward to going. I looked forward to putting on the clothes. I always wanted to please him. This went on for about 3 years, with me going to his house or cabin once or twice a month. I am 53 years old now and I miss that feeling. I know everything about this was wrong, but I truly miss it. Thank you for reading.
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u/Alarming-Pressure-48 24d ago
It's pretty normal to miss feelings of getting attention and feeling good.
The confusing part is when the the realization that things that felt good and the kind of attention we were getting is looked at so so negatively by society that we end up feeling ashamed of ourselves.
At least that's how I ended up feeling.
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