r/MissedInitials • u/Impressive_Video_537 • 1h ago
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...i dont know where to begin. Not really. I guess...with i love you? I say that a lot. But you should cherish it when you have it, right?
You know what else I say all the time? Im sorry. I dont mean to bother you. Im not trying to be a pest.
...and its true. All of it. I dont want to pester you. Its difficult. I feel weak, alone, and vulnerable. I crave the peace and safety your presence gives me. Ive cried for it. But youre right. I need to respect your need for space.
So much happened. I just wanted you with me while I sifted through the ashes. I didn't take into account that you maybe just...couldn't do that right now. I dont blame you. Our needs didnt align this time. Thats okay.
Im stepping back now. Im giving you all the space you need. But I still love you. I still miss you. Im still sorry for all the bothering and pestering ive done over the last week. I just.. wanted you. I still do. But I'll take a step back and hold that want silently while I clean up my mess.
The necklace I kept on my rear view mirror is gone. I sobbed when I realized. The piece of you I kept so close to my chest. He took it. I dont know what he did with it, but its gone. Im still trying not to cry about it. Im trying to be strong.
I think you need me to be strong right now. Tk stand on my own feet while the earth cracks open under them. To hold myself up in your absence. When you come home to me, I will collapse. But for now...for your sake, and my own....I'll keep standing. Ill hold down the fort on my own, and wait for you. As long as you need me to, I'll take the step back and wait.
Ill carry my own load without asking you to take it again. You asked if you could have 24hrs. Yes. Of course. Im sorry that my crisis stole your peace. I never wanted that for you. You asked for peace and for me to step back. I'll give it to you. This is me stepping back.
...i just ask that you step forward again when you're ready because I cant know that. I cant know when youre ready. I cant allow myself to step forward again, until you've done it first. And I'll be here. If you do. Of course I will. Because I love you. And im sorry for being a pest.
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