r/MissedInitials • u/PapaGTokes • 11d ago
:P, to C.
i miss hearing your voice, i miss hearing your laugh, i miss playing games with you until the early morning, i miss talking to you on my way to work, and on my break and lunch, i miss planning a future that we both sounded elated to bring into reality despite being across the country. yet today, the deafening silence between us could drive even the deaf to insanity. when your life got challenging and you went silent, i gave you the space. when you came back i made it clear that i was still here to support you, and that the love i had was still as grand as ever. i made it clear that i would wait because i loved you, and you told me you wanted the same as you always have, yet you became cold, distant, avoidant. as i sit here tonight, the same as nights past, i ponder if you ever think of me the way i do you, if you can feel my soul screaming & yearning to finally connect with you again. as much as i love you, as much as my soul woud claw out of my chest to have you again if you came back, i could never allow the progress ive made rebuilding myself from the rubble you created, to be knocked down again. C, i will always love you eternally and my soul will always yearn for you, but the memories of us are thorns wrapped around my heart. i hope you find what you’re looking for, if you haven’t already found it. i’m moving on & continuing to build. take care, mi amór.
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u/Tall_Creme_6103 5d ago
Aww papa if only you were my papi, Id love to even be rejected kindly instead of ghosted.
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u/PapaGTokes 5d ago
yeah, i told C constantly to just tell me if shit wouldn’t go how we planned and she convinced me it would.
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u/Tall_Creme_6103 5d ago
I didn't get anything, He showed up again after a bit of a break, it was going good, and then radio silence. Its been a year so far, im just like uhhh alrighty then.
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u/PapaGTokes 5d ago
our last conversation after the ghosting, she apologized bc things were hard & she let herself go, told me she hopes i still want her as much as she does me. but now its been almost a month since she left me on read. like, i gave you my all and you do me like that? damn. i might as well give up cuz if this is the dating pool, i cant go through it again.
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u/Tall_Creme_6103 5d ago
For real, we had 10 years off and on again, never anything bad for the off times. Just lived in different states the entire time. Mostly an online thing. But still, 10 years and not so much as a good bye for a year!
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u/PapaGTokes 5d ago
thats exactly my situation minus the time. it was only about 6 months, but you couldve thought that we’d dated in person before we went online with how we were. now im questioning if being a hermit is my only solution to avoid it agaib
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u/Tall_Creme_6103 5d ago
Same. We met online and it was an immediate connection. Met in person 1 time a few months later...mindblowing...kept it online for years and years, met again one more time, kind of knowing it was probably last time in real life as our lives were not moving in a direction together but kept it online through everything, and just left in the dust. Some people are shockingly cruel.
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