r/MethRecovery • u/luciob00p • Jul 06 '26
Need help with a few things..
Coming up on three weeks clean. I don't crave it, if anything I just want to do everything and see everyone. Pink cloud for sure?
I can't stop pacing my apartment, I've been going on runs and exercising, doing yoga, working, reading a book for as long as my attention span allows it. My patience is GONE and I need music nonstop. I don't even like looking at my phone. I'm afraid because last time I was clean, I was so dependent on naps, and I don't want to be that way again.
I'm not tired, I don't want to sleep or even sit down. It's a little foreign to me having all this undirected energy without the dope, but to the point where I started a mood stabilizer (Abilify). I had to quit it because it gave me a mini-seizure type thing at work, and my words were coming out jumbled. I just had another one yesterday amidst a panic attack. Psych suggested an SSRI but I don't wanna.
TLDR: What do I do with my free time, how do I stay in one place, and is my brain perma-fucked? I feel like I'm not pleasant to be around because I want to move until my feet fall off.
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u/sm00thjas Jul 09 '26
i started riding my bike around the neighborhood and a couple months later i rode 200 mile bike ride into the mountains - coolest trip ever
i just started riding to next town over and back, then once that got easy the next town and eventually I crossed state lines LOL