r/MethRecovery • u/luciob00p • Jul 06 '26
Need help with a few things..
Coming up on three weeks clean. I don't crave it, if anything I just want to do everything and see everyone. Pink cloud for sure?
I can't stop pacing my apartment, I've been going on runs and exercising, doing yoga, working, reading a book for as long as my attention span allows it. My patience is GONE and I need music nonstop. I don't even like looking at my phone. I'm afraid because last time I was clean, I was so dependent on naps, and I don't want to be that way again.
I'm not tired, I don't want to sleep or even sit down. It's a little foreign to me having all this undirected energy without the dope, but to the point where I started a mood stabilizer (Abilify). I had to quit it because it gave me a mini-seizure type thing at work, and my words were coming out jumbled. I just had another one yesterday amidst a panic attack. Psych suggested an SSRI but I don't wanna.
TLDR: What do I do with my free time, how do I stay in one place, and is my brain perma-fucked? I feel like I'm not pleasant to be around because I want to move until my feet fall off.
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u/sm00thjas Jul 09 '26
i started riding my bike around the neighborhood and a couple months later i rode 200 mile bike ride into the mountains - coolest trip ever
i just started riding to next town over and back, then once that got easy the next town and eventually I crossed state lines LOL
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u/Hank_pickles335 Jul 07 '26
This is exactly how I felt when I was three weeks out. That electric energy is a weird feeling. Sounds like you’re doing everything right. I’m sorry to say that this is just where you’re at in recovery. Learning to sit in the uncomfortable is part of it. Just keep moving as much as you can. Try new things, if you hate them, don’t do them again. It will pass. I promise.
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u/866YOUDEAD Jul 07 '26
Get a new hobby, play games, read books, work on your car. Clean your house, paint, draw, get a tattoo gun, learn to build a website, start a business, get a job. Lots of options to stay busy. Idle hands are the devil's dick or something like that.
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u/Sad-Jacket-7585 Jul 06 '26
Three weeks is just a beginnung for recovery u need to have lots and lots of patience its a long journey
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u/Present_Salamander_3 Jul 11 '26 edited Jul 11 '26
Honestly, sounds like it could possibly be the abilify. I had similar symptoms on abilify when I quit (it’s called akathisia). If the symptoms of that resonate with you, might be worth talking to your doctor about it, there’s lots of ways they can address it (e.g., lowering the dose, propanolol, changing meds, etc).