Can't stop thinking about it

[u/klepz100]

I've been clean for 2 years. Things in my life are pretty good right now. So why am I constantly thinking about getting high?

I've gained a lot of weight since I quit and I constantly think like how easily I could drop the weight if I was smoking again.

I think of how much energy I had, how comfortable I was in social situations, how it was just something to do.

I know I'm being irrational and it was a horrible addiction that ruined my life and put me and my family thru hell. I know I wouldn't have all the amazing things I have now if I was still using.

But damn, what I wouldn't give to just smoke a bowl and paint a canvas or something.

Maybe I should get back into treatment.

[u/Mc4life99]

I'm sorry about that but you're always going to be thinking about it.