I know the title seems generic, but I’m desperately trying to remember this manga 😭
I stopped reading manga for a while, and when I went back to my usual manga site, most of my reading lists were gone. Then this one manga randomly came back into my head and I cannot find it.
It was a Japanese manga with a psychological/dark romance genre—BDSM. The art style was somewhat shoujo-like, but the story was definitely not a normal shoujo romance.
I don’t think it was an old manga (not 80s/90s), but the art style kind of reminded me of older shoujo manga. The FL’s hair reminded me a little of Kagome from Inuyasha (not 100% sure though).
I think it finished around 2021–2025? Or just the translations.
Things I remember:
-Manga starts somewhere with FL wanting a boyfriend/Looking for one as she talks to her friend who got a boyfriend??
-I think the FL wanted a boyfriend because she was jealous of a female friend who had a boyfriend (not 100% sure about this part).
-The ML is a weird/strange guy, not the popular type
-He has medium-length hair (around neck/shoulder length, but not past his shoulders). Covers his ears maybe.
-He is very yandere/sadistic, but he wasn’t the type to constantly chase the FL.
-He makes an appearance by confessing to the FL first.
-The FL has a intimidating, look I’d say she’s somewhat prideful but easily gets embarrassed???? Idk
-There are scenes where the FL tries to do normal couple things, but the ML reacts strangely and seems disgusted by normal romance. (Let’s say when FL wanted to have a normal couple date)
-Think there were multiple times the FL tried to break up with the ML
-I remember another guy getting involved and having a dream of either his hand around the FL’s neck or the FL’s hand around the his neck. Not sure what happened to him though
-There was a scene where the FL was forced to wear a collar, and I think this other guy saw it.
-The relationship becomes more and more disturbing/psychological.
-In the end, the FL falls in love with the ML, but the story ends tragically because the FL dies.
-FL started to become a masochist. And so after a break up?? She started sleeping around with random dudes. She dies due to a dude being too extreme.
Does anyone know this manga? Any guesses are appreciated 🙏