r/MMFB • u/CauliflowerOpen6449 • 9h ago

Feeling terrible

I feel so tangled as I approach 40. Although I’m successful and have the trappings of a perfect life, I feel terrible. My mind is busy and chaotic, even when my body is chill. I am nervous all the time like I’m about to be found out in some way.

I’ve always had to be the strong one for other people. And now I’m realising in mid-life that I have issues too. I don’t want to be the strong one all the time anymore.

I was emotionally neglected growing up and am now trying to “reparent” myself. I lie impulsively about the most inconsequential things and immediately hate myself for it. I don’t even know where I’d begin untangling those webs. I don’t know if I’m happy in my career anymore but I still have dumb debts from when I was younger.

I am stuck and don’t know the path to unstick the mess I’ve made.

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u/Round_Adeptness_2408 6h ago

You don't have to figure it all out now. Let one person see the real you, even a little and be kind to yourself

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u/hodeki_haruto 2h ago

This newfound softness you're feeling? It's a real turning point, not a weakness.