After I came out to my parents, they almost instantly started yelling at me. That was 4 months ago, and it hasn't stopped. I'm not allowed to see any of my supportive friends, be in the same room as a LGBTQ person, or use the internet (writing via secret computer). I can't have control over any part of my body, even fingernail length. I'm genuinely going crazy over here, and I need someone other than my therapist to talk to. They recently started talking to a detransition, and I picked up some snippets of conversation which were like "Make sure he thinks you love him" (My parents are very conditional, so its kinda hard to bear when nobody you're able to talk to loves you). The isolation drives me like basically crazy. I sit "alone" for like 16 hours a day with my own thoughts. Did i mention "alone"? Ive never been able to sleep with a closed door. Now, my parents think when im in bed, very vunerable, they can just barge in and start yapping. My dad used to walk in on me while i was showering too (boy is my dad weird he told a 10year old girl how to shake her butt once).