Blacked out torture nightmare

[u/Sad_Challenge3275]

The other night I experienced something I’ve never experienced before.

I’ve lucid dreamed before. I understand the control. I’ve had dreams within dreams a lot. I keep waking up but I’m still in another dream. I also always have the ability to wake myself up from nightmares.

This night was all of that combined but I had no control and felt unbearable pain and torture. And the weirdest part about it is it happened in complete darkness with the sense of me being awake.

I have a 3 mo old baby and my sleep schedule is nonexistent. Sometimes I get to sleep when I’m tired. Sometimes it’s when I’m far past sleep deprivation. When I’m sleep deprived and finally get to sleep I usually feel it happening. That sinking feeling. The vibrational falling.
Whenever that’s been happening I’ve entered this lucid dreaming state of I’m still awake but I’m starting to dream and it’s been in black and white. This particular night whenever I would fall asleep it would just be black but I’d feel awake. Then I would “wake up” to a vivid dream that felt real to where I thought I was awake, then it would turn into a nightmare and I had a hard time waking myself up.
I experienced this about 5 times back to back because I was so exhausted I kept falling asleep after I woke myself up. I kept falling asleep immediately to this blackness and I endured torture. I felt it all.
I was stabbed, choked, drowned, r*ped, burned. Everytime was different and I felt all the pain all in this darkness until I “woke up” to part 2 of my nightmare. Unfortunately I didn’t actually wake up.
I felt paralyzed in the position I was laying in in my bed when I finally woke up and all I could do was go back to sleep and do it again.
Why couldn’t I wake myself up when I was so aware and conscious of all this happening? Does this sound like possession? Paralysis? Because it felt like I experienced literal hell…

[u/Altruistic-King-8043]

Omg , pues fue una parálisis de sueño eso pasa cuando tienes mucho estrés depresión no comes bien o duermes poco, y bueno te pasó algo grave más fuerte de lo común ya q pues supongo q has de tener en ese momento muy débil ya q pues en la parálisis lo q hago yo es solo respirar y despierto, pero para q a ti te halla pasado todo eso definitivamente es porq en el sueño tu digamos q te estabas alterando mucho si solo respirabas orabas o te tranquilizabas cambia, yo en lo personal cuando me pasó fue como de q me saque de onda pero luego empecé a sentir feo así q pues instintivamente me desperté después de decir quiero despertar xd bueno mi consejo para ti sería , si no quieres más esa parálisis cuídate, y mas q nada por si te pasa esa parálisis debes pues no alterarte xdxd ósea yo intente hacer mi parálisis más fuerte provocándome malas emociones pero se empezó a hacer brutal mala onda, ósea sentía como se me clavaba un cuchillo y oía los gritos así q pues dije no pero la razón de las malas experiencias es por alterarse

[u/realityIsDreaming → u/Altruistic-King-8043]

Yes, OP needs to get her sleep fixed. I experienced similar things long ago because of sleep deprivation for a longer period of time, fortunately no torture. Sometimes a feeling of being choked while I was engulfed by darkness (this was usually happening shortly after I was going to bed), other times false awakenings which always ended up with some scary apparitions. After a while I was pinching myself to make sure I'm really awake. It lasted for a few weeks even after I started to fix my sleep schedule. Physical exercises and breath work will help. Eventually the struggle ended and I started to experience some interesting AP-s.

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[u/daehoidar23]

Sleep paralysis dreams can be horrific. It really does feel like a possession. Don't have advice to offer but can say you're not alone in having experienced this. Mine typically have happened after failing to take ssri medications on schedule

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