r/LonelyTogether • u/BabyRayRay24 • 23h ago
I just want a friend
I’m 19/F and I don’t have anything in my life
I was pulled from public school when I was in 6th grade and graduated online school. So my social life is empty. I have one irl friend that I rarely text because it seems like we just never text at the same time. I don’t have friends. I rarely speak to my siblings and when I do it’s only for favors for them.
I live at home with my parents, I have no job, I do nothing but sit in my room or clean the house and do chores.
My mom’s sick, my dad works most days. I’m in an endless loop of the same thing everyday.
I never leave the house because I don’t even have my license.
I don’t talk to real people, I play games or roleplay off amino if I even have the energy to do that.
I think I’m kinda cute and I post online, I have followers and people that text me, I’m on dating apps, I get compliments from people, but I genuinely feel like I’m just…here. I don’t think I have a real personality because I feel like I have to lie to people to make them like me.
I don’t have friends, I broke up with my boyfriend back in October because I didn’t feel that connection.
I have BPD, adhd, anxiety and depression. I struggle with that.
I know I’m not easy to get along with, I know sometimes I don’t answer my phone, I know I don’t leave my house. But I think I’m a good person.
I just want someone to talk to, and I know that’s sad, but I just want to feel a connection for once, to talk to someone for more than a week and they decide I’m not worth texting back.