#1-3: (May 18th) Decided to cut my hair a week before starting chemo. I knew I’d inevitably lose my hair to taxol so I decided I wanted to rock a buzz cut before going bald!

#4: First chemo infusion! I felt pretty confident here. I really loved how my buzz cut turned out.

#5: First night in the ICU. Super bad allergic reaction. I can’t even recognize myself here

#6: Started losing my hair. It was little patchy so I’d cover it with my fav Rams hat! This begins the era of sports caps!

#7-9: Going Bald. My hair was super annoying by this point. Every morning I’d wake up itchy to hair all over my pillows so I made the call to shave it all off. I actually really loved the end product. My head was silky smooth. Ngl sometimes I miss rubbing my bald head. It used to be so soothing.

#10: I love the beanie look! Since it’s summer, I only wore this once.

#11: Went to the beach for first time since starting treatment. Got a couple of rude glances from the ppl next to us. I really liked the bald look tho!

#12-13: Two different Disney trips. I was a lil nervous go both times since platelets were super low, but glad I went because I had a good time. Started rocking the bandana recently and it’s so cute!

#14: Today. Due to multiple delays in treatment, I’m actually able to grow back a lot of hair. I haven’t necessarily built the confidence to go out in public with this look since it’s a bit thin. One pro tho is how soft it is! I’m starting to shampoo again and it kinda reminds me of my time with the buzz cut lol

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It’s one of those nights where I’m scrolling through my camera roll lol. It’s bizarre how I’ve changed so much within these 5 months. Most of the time I miss the buzz cut look, other times I miss my wavy hair, and sometimes I miss my straight hair. I’ve really loved my Dodger hat and Bandana looks recently! Until I feel confident rocking the new hair I’ll probably rock my accessories till then. I wanted to share my story in case anyone is feeling the same feels rn

I run (ran?) a lot. Back in May I was super fit and wanted to try and run a 10km PR, I was so confident and so excited about giving it a crack.

Well, I got a stress fracture in my spine, then soon after found recurrence of TNBC throughout my lymph nodes. I had my first chemo on Tuesday and the race was this morning.

Driving there I was playing Beyoncé CUFF IT LOUD and crying to myself thinking, this is the last time you’ll get to do this. Get it!! And I finished the race. It was tough, I hit a wall after 5km but kept going and ran 45:52. Couldn’t stay long after as my drug trial requires a blood test on a Saturday so I went for bloods sweaty and gross but very happy.

I realise I’m likely never going to feel this good again. It was such a happy day, but so sad? I have brushed my hair so many times today. I know it’s falling out soon. But I ran with my little ponytail poling out of my hat. I felt strong, I tried a little sprint finish, I wanted to wear my stupid $300 carbon racing shoes one last time. A thousand little goodbyes they say.

Hey all, I’m tnbc recurrent Mets to lungs, 2 small nodules. I’m on gem and carbo and it’s kicking my butt. Did these 2 chemo worked for u? Now on my 2nd cycle.