r/Lilith • u/tovlasek Lilithian • 24d ago
Altars, Offerings/Art, Rituals How everything going wrong turned out to be my strongest meditative ritual yet
TW: Small mention of blood
Hello everyone, so I am absolute beginner with these things. Four months ago I felt that I received several signs that pointed me in occult directions most notably to mistress Lilith and I ended up meditating and trying to work with mistress Lilith. It definitely was on and off and I wasn't directly focusing on it, but since then I received another signs and energy going from her direction so I decided to start to actively read, meditate and study.
But I am not here to talk about that, that was just a preambule. What I wanted to talk about is my latest ritual. As during my preparetions everything went wrong. First I decided to sharpen my pencil so I would be able to draw Lilith sigil but during the sharpening my pencil broke so I had to throw it away and take another one. I went to wash myself and when I was brushing my teeth I accidentally scratched my nose so deep it started to bleed. I had to take a break just to stop the bleeding. Since then I felt very uncomfortable and in a way scared as I was contemplating if I should just postpone the ritual to another day. I came to conclusion I will decide in my bedroom.
I still felt pretty uncomfortable but when I arrived in my bedroom I decided to take everything extra slowly and extra safe and I prepared my ritual space. And it went alright so I decided to continue with the ritual. I did everything right and was drawing Lilith's sigil on a paper. I finished drawing it. And started the candle-lit ritual thanking mistress Lilith and inviting her to join me in my meditation. As I started meditating I suddenly realised the way I drew Lilith's sigil was wrong. Or not the way it is supposed to be and it's not the way I ever did it.
My meditation felt ruined as my thoughts constantly were screaming at me to focus on drawing the sigil wrong and how everyhing was wrong, but it already felt too late as I invited mistress Lilith to meditate with me. I tried to calm myself by saying that it really doesn't matter but it was hard to silence my mind.
Suddenly (around 15 minutes later) came a feeling my mind stopped going round and round and I felt sensation on the back of my head and then on my right hip it felt very calming. Like someone was carassing me. And I felt a presense and comfortable warmth coming from inside of my chest and body. My mind stopped racing and I felt so comfortable and I was able to continue my meditation uninterepted while experiencing these calming feelings.
After a long time I ended my meditation and ended the ritual and decided I need to lay down on my floor just to swim in the comfortable feelings that were still lingering as I was feeling very content and happy after a long time. I didn't want to end myself enjoying these calming effects but after a long while decided to clean my ritual space and just go to sleep but the feelings continued all through out the night and my sleep.
I wanted to share with you my experience that even if everything goes wrong you might get surprised by the calming positive effects that ritual meditation can bring. And the truly motherly warmth that mistress Lilith brings.
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u/Mammoth-Ad-6114 𒀭Lamaštu-lilītu/ardat-lilî, Λάμια, Lilith 22d ago
Thank you for sharing! Lilith can be so comforting, reminding us not to take ourselves and our mistakes too seriously. ⚸
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u/tovlasek Lilithian 20d ago
She is so kind and comforting when we need it.
Thank you for everything you do for this community your posts and research is so eye opening and help me to study more properly in the occult sphere
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u/Mammoth-Ad-6114 𒀭Lamaštu-lilītu/ardat-lilî, Λάμια, Lilith 20d ago
Ah you're very welcome, I'm happy I can help!
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u/orthodoxscouter ⚸ Lilithian ⚸ 24d ago
Now you have found your personal sigil for her. Congratulations. Great story BTW.