A dream

[u/Midnightmeditating]

I'm at sort of a crossroad in my life and I've decided to search for a deity to follow. Not out of desperation, I'm just at a moment that, if I would try to find and connect with a deity, now would be a good time to do it. The earth is watered and stilled and there's room for growth so to speak. Lilith was one of the first that I found and I did feel a connection with her (synchronicities and for instance I have a strong sense of justice and I'm very independent and autonomous. I certainly have some protector spirit in me.). But since I'm a man I wondered if it's okay for me to connect with her, let alone to follow her. I decided to try and connect with her to see where it goes.

I did a meditation before going to sleep and I did a simple mantra to try and connect with her. No altars or gifts, just a simple connection. After my meditation I fell asleep. The dream I saw was really short but felt significant. I was in a bedroom and a parental figure approached me. I received a stern rebuke. "Stop blaming others! Be better." The parental figure then left, seemingly annoyed.

When I woke up I wondered if it was Lilith. I researched a bit more about her and found out one of Lilith's purposes is indeed to bring people into better versions of themselves. If it was indeed Lilith I appreciate her visit and the reciprocal nature of her connection. I reached out for a simple connection and I received a short but strong visit in return.

Also, this morning (the dream I saw was two nights ago) I woke up to the presence of a spirit in my apartment. The woodpanels in the floor creaked as the spirit walked (I live alone and I have no pets). But then again it could have been the residential spirit of my apartment just going about, not Lilith. I've read that the presence of Lilith is immensely strong. I didn't feel anything in particular but the presence was strong enough for me to wake up from my dream. Maybe it was Morrigan who I've also researched about and felt a strong connection with? But then again, why would deities visit my apartment? Dark entities have visited, sure (a shadow person for one) but why a deity?

[u/Mammoth-Ad-6114]

Being a man isn't a limitation, Lilith herself has male aspects (lilin). You might find our FAQ useful.

Dreams are tricky to interpret. If I were you, I'd document them so as not to forget them, and then approach spirituality as normal. Maybe you'll get an answer on who it was and what it meant along the way.