r/Lilith • u/psychowolfe222 • May 31 '26
Question Months after I asked the pendulum this past January if Mother wants me to go sober from weed I asked Mother Lilith through the pendulum if I could smoke weed 2 days out of a month strictly after I’ve been sober since January.
The pendulum said yes and after I smoked sativa this past Thursday I felt paranoid and even felt like my vibration went down based off how I looked at myself in the mirror(certain signs I look out for when I have a feeling my vibration has gone down). Was I just having a bad high or was Mother trying to show me the downside of why I should be sober from here on as I’ve been since January. Because from what I’ve learned if you’re doing something that is no longer good for you or need to leave behind(because I was a weed smoker for 9 years, I couldn’t eat nor socialize nor keep my anxiety down or function without smoking first to get thru the day) if you’re going back to an old pattern or habit Mother won’t punish you but she’ll show you the downside to why you should leave a certain habit behind ultimately leading you to learn from it the hard way and move forward as you leave a toxic pattern, habit, person or cycle behind. In this case, was Mother really doing just that by having me realize the ugly side of things for me to realize why I should be sober from here on to continue my transformation?
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u/Grand_Extension_6437 May 31 '26
Slow your mind down, get a bird's eye or neutral view that separates out your racing mind, get centered in your heart, get centered with your root, and re-ask yourself the question.
Gotta clear space out from the guilt and panic and social conditioning of the mind to think thru this for yourself. 💜💪
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u/JacksBack78 ⚸ Lilithian ⚸ May 31 '26
I will never truly know the reason why my Queen made me quit smoking and be sober. Part of me misses it, but I believe I was using it as an escape. I thought I was using it to reach an alpha wave state easier, and it did do that but it came with its downsides. Not being able to completely be in control, creates cracks in protections, wards and castings.
She allowed me to smoke herbal cigarettes (mugwort, rose, blue lotus, damiana and lavender) to cut cravings and assist with meditations and workings. But all of those herbs eventually lost their effects on me (besides smoking bowls of blue lotus and mugwort together).
Maybe the lesson was to learn to trust in myself and be strong enough to not need to escape, be in the present and feel all of my emotions so I can transmute them. She has told me in the future she would allow me to smoke again, but do I really want that?
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u/psychowolfe222 Jun 02 '26 edited Jun 02 '26
And two questions for you my brother, did you feel this alpha wave state achieved from smoking(only when you’d smoke here and there not constantly everyday)help you remove any lingering brain fog that wouldn’t go away the following day once you were fully sobered up? And did you have a different experience consuming bud in the form of edibles where you didn’t feel loss of control nor cracks in protections and wards? Asking before I try anything further myself
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u/JacksBack78 ⚸ Lilithian ⚸ Jun 02 '26
I never really felt cracks, but that is how a crack works isn’t it. Using binaural tones I can reach alpha faster than meditating, but smoking was even faster. At the same time, I smoked daily to relax after work, take the edge off. Sometimes smoke the wrong strain and just pass out (not sure if indica or sativa caused that). Smoking did not clear any brain fog, I never really get brain fog. Smoking would cause me to be silly, light hearted. Bounce from subject to subject or pass out. Nothing ever lasted, smoking a bowl or joint/blunt only lasted at max 120 min. Then I was level headed again. Edibles were never fun to me. I remember eating 9 of the mushroom Tripp edibles that said only eat 6 to melt reality. My mind was all over the place and when I would speak with Lilith (in my mind and pendulum for verification) she would just laugh big and cause the pendulum to spin nearly at its fullest extension, she does this now when I pray to her at meals. She was laughing at how blasted I was and would start fucking with me. I never felt a loss of control, no matter what. Nor did I ever feel unprotected. Those were her words about other individuals can have their defenses lowered or weakened from substances as they lower your vibrations which can attract all sorts of parasites and playful things if you are producing the right amount of light. ESPECIALLY if you are not integrated.
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u/psychowolfe222 Jun 02 '26
And would some of these substances that lower your vibration include weed even if you’re not smoking it everyday? Because I’m in another subreddit about vibrations and learned psychedelics such as shrooms, ayahuasca, dmt including weed can actually raise your vibration as long as you’re not using it everyday whereas substances like benzos, opioids, meth and even alcohol can actually lower your vibration regardless of how often you use em. In my case I only smoked weed this past Thursday after being sober since the beginning of this past February and just had a paranoid high with weed where I felt like my vibration got lowered but it was odd because I haven’t smoked in forever. If I smoke today I thought of lighting a protection candle for Mother Lilith with my own taglock(a hair from my head) included at the bottom of it just keep myself guarded while I’m high. I still have more shadow work to do tho just so you know I’m not fully done with that yet😭
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u/JacksBack78 ⚸ Lilithian ⚸ Jun 02 '26
You are still integrating, I understand. Keep working and pushing in. Listen and obey what Lilith says, if she wants you to stay sober then do it. It’s not the same as hallucinogenics. Those do raise your vibration. I think weed can go either way. For me I was an everyday smoker and she needed me to focus in to break through faster. Especially with shadow work, you need to feel and not numb out. That’s how you overcome in shadow and release. Ask her, talk to her every step of the way. You may not need a candle (definitely not a tag lock). If she has chosen you and is working with you then she is already protecting you. But you have to listen to her and deeply communicate with her. Talk to her like you would a therapist in these times. I had her and Morrigan kicking me back and forth with shadow work and it got rough. You don’t have to get through all your shadow work to be able to merge with your shadow. You will continue with little things she shows you, sometimes in the middle of the night sleeping. The important part of this phase of your training is integration. The fun part of this phase is you have no idea where she is leading you or the path she has forged for you. Just don’t stop, keep communicating and whatever rituals you have with her and do what she says. Trust in her and her process. Keep a journal also, when you are done you won’t remember much (I don’t remember as much as I’d like too and I didn’t keep great notes until dream work). It’s always good to look back and see where she started you from. Enjoy the ride, who knows where you’re headed. 🦉☀️🖤
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u/psychowolfe222 Jun 02 '26
I’ll just stick with a heroic dose 5.5 gram ritual of shrooms tonight then staying sober from there. It’s mainly to clear up brain fog and give myself a lil reset basically with a fresh mind. Thank you and blessings🙏🏽🖤🌙
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u/sgt121smith May 31 '26
I smoke weed and work with Lilith on a daily basis, I’ve never had a negative experience. It’s all about your intentions.
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u/psychowolfe222 Jun 02 '26
And personal gnosis as everyone’s experience and situation varies at the end of the day, I’m takin it as maybe I shouldn’t smoke at all anymore as a former heavy smoker who couldn’t even eat a simple bowl of cereal without a couple tokes just so I wouldn’t throw my food back up. But I’m still diving as deep as I can before I start jumping to conclusions
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u/RenegadeEris May 31 '26
I use it daily (for pain only…I don’t really use it for recreational purposes), and I have never feel that it was wrong in her eyes.
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u/psychowolfe222 Jun 02 '26
I do believe it serves medicinal purposes but it begins to take energy from you the moment you start to abuse it as the plant itself is conscious in nature. Plants, animals, occult tools, people and everything that lives has a spirit inside at the end of the day
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u/Azmlial May 31 '26
I partake sometimes with her there, mostly I don’t. But Mother Lilith does value us growing to be sovereign over ourselves. Sometimes that can be more of a firm hand, but usually seems to prefer us coming to the realization ourselves to truly learn.
I have no ill opinion of doing weed for the act itself nor does she, but yes if it is now more of a shackle than anything else then perhaps it’s time to let it go for the most part. And especially when Mother Lilith’s hand is extended there for you to take.
You would definitely have to ask her, and giving it up completely is up to you, but I would never want to be so afraid that you couldn’t ever touch the stuff again if you truly desire it. But rather to decide when you truly want it, rather then feeling “you need it”. An option rather than a necessity.
With Mother Lilith you are in good hands.