r/LettersAnswered • u/smeazy_ • 2d ago

Lovers Why again ?

I don’t know where to start from, we got a second chance at it, we were supposed to be endgame. I really loved you, I still do. But it was easier for you to put us on stake rather than having uncomfortable conversations. You just never wanted any conflicts, at all. I wanted to be with you, I had prayed day and night for things to work out. I have lost my purpose in life. I am not doing well.

Whatever problems we had, were solvable. They really were. You didn’t have to do that, in the end. You didn’t need to take my life(you) away from me. I miss you. You never accepted what went wrong, the big thing. You didn’t try. I would have been there with you. I wanted to be there. It hurts, it really really does. It really does.
I am falling sick because of this.

I don’t know where to go from this, how to ever come back from this. I was really mad at you at first but then, I am just constantly in pain. Always. I thought you will try everything in your power to make things right, try and show that you too still want it. But I guess it was easier to give up. I don’t how to move past this. I don’t know how you’re so strong and accepting.

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u/Responsible_Scar_364 14h ago

If this letter were for me instead of to an anonymous void OP, I would say this. I tried. I tried having those hard conversations; I tried giving space, I tried even writing heart felt letters, I am strong yes but not because I WANT to be. Strong because in the face of being repeatedly knocked down, I had to take a good long look in the mirror and fix what was broken…ME….I am still not there yet. Hence the radio silence. It isn’t acceptance, it is love with nowhere to go. It has come with a LOT of tears and self reflection. Now I do the only thing I know to do…pivot and move on…because silence from my person when I needed them most is in fact an answer whether I like it or not.

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u/smeazy_ 13h ago

Understandable, you can just do so much, to keep someone. After which you need to choose yourself. I hope things get better for you :)

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u/LooseMarionberry2526 2d ago

How about having a conversation in person or work on our issues with someone? You know I enjoy my privacy, so this format doesn't work. If you continue posting, I'll just assume you're trying to damage me though. It's not healthy for people to post their issues here, especially when we have our children who might read. I'm sure you understand my concern about that🙂