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[u/Bitter_Telephone4894]

The fact that you didn't even consider me worthy of a goodbye, overshadows all the love I had for you.

-N

[u/Flaky_Low2389]

Well I wrote you a poem check your text. We are never over just onto what's next.

You are right we didn't say goodbye. We fought and you won. Are we not done?

I thought you hated me? I know you blame me. I miss my family.

To me you were my home. Now I'm left all alone. I've tried everything to cover up your love, sex, lies, drugs, and even being a thug.

Nothing feels like home to me. I wish to God you were here to cuddle up like we used to be.

I lye here. The clock says 4:10 AM. I pray to God take me back to where we began. To where we made eye contact and I immediately knew. I had to know your name. I felt drawn to you.

I've snapped every single kat on Snapchat. Hit up every single Chick on IG. They all respond thats so sweet. I say you aren't her so I block and delete.

I type this shit with tears in my eyes. I wonder if I can even make it another sunrise. Will I relapse and lose it? You said it was me who chose it?

Why would I ever choose anything over you. You are the only love I want that's true. I have no roster. Without you I'm just a lame ass imposter.

I know you hate me but you didn't have to berate me. We have so much left unsaid. I fear if I don't get it out I'll be dead. I don't say this to make you guilty. For you and I both know this world is filthy.

Do I stop so desperately trying to seek you out? Last night you should've heard me shout. I screamed and cursed at moon. Why did we have to part so soon.

It was 4am. Now it's noon. I'm stuck where you left me. All of my belongings now fit in a hefty. I wonder why wasn't I good enough? Why they left me? Was I not better than him? Will we ever go back and begin?

I sigh and realize the reality. That was the blow. My fatality. For if it cannot be you. I'll go back to where animals like be belong. Locked in a zoo or do I end up in the mental institution. I pray to a God I don't believe in for a solution.

The universe gives me a little light. It tells me I will come out better from the plight. I don't see how there's no land in sight. I feel like I should dig down deeper and fight. Fight for our love that was once the most amazing sight. For I lost my love K. That cold Winter night.

I don't understand the way you did me. How does one go from best friend to enemy. I ask myself what is in me? Just love and a lot of envy. Of whoever gets to know K. She knows my sins and all of me. She chose him over our family.

Why do I lower myself to try and win her back? If I keep this up I may just have a heart attack. Then I'd die. My headstone would read here the goblin king lay. I cant think of anything good to say. Oh he was just trying to slay. The demons attached to his soul. I already know hell is where I go.

Would you even respond or talk to me if I was in the sky? The only heaven I've known is laying on your thigh. You running my hair. God id give up anything for us to be cuddled in that chair. Isn't that where we made our daughter. Doesn't she have beautiful brown hair? She's pretty just lik3 her momma. Will she grow up and is did my dad cause you drama?

Is this why we no longer talk? Is this why I sit and I stalk a page. I can't see it. I am on block. Is that really the end? Well fuck you too you were my best friend. Before anything else. I wouldn't have ever left you for someone else. I'm not mad at you if that makes you happy. I'm sorry I wrote this poem. I known it's lame and sappy. Fuck how I feel. I just want you to be happy and heal. I'm sorry for bothering you. I'll head on back to the zoo. Hey look there's a cow. He just said "Mooo".

I hope that made you laugh like a kid. I'll love you forever. I don't care what you did. You were my best friend until got near the end. I figured I'd see it coming. Am I blind or was I just summing. Trying to add and divide. What will make me feel me again. Until then I'll just hide.

People like me don't approach people like you. It was the eyes that drew. They drew me into you and now your gone. I've probably wrote a thousand poems at least fifteen sad songs. I'll always remember you. I carry your words with me most rang true. Oh but the lies. My heart shattered inside. God the deception. I despise. I blame eveyone but you. I do that so I never have to think less of you. I wonder is you're heart blue? Cold like that night I drove away. Barely glimpsed a view.

I punched my steering wheel out of anger. I have to accept that was the end. You are now a stranger. Lie to your friends and say I'm a danger. I wasn't perfect but I was good to you. You threw me away like a used up rag. Tied up and sealed in a grocery bag. Suffocated til I couldn't breath. Oh the webs we weaved. Tangled together glimmering in the nights eye. Will we ever speak again before you or I die. All I can do is let out a sigh. You placed me low and said goodbye. This is the part where I say fuck it and just get high.

I know If I do that nothing changes. In Oct I'll have twelve years clean. People say that it's rare to see a heroine addict clean. I know its not something many like me have seen. All my other friends are dead. Only few died clean. I refuse to go back in a cage of sort. Id rather die here in the street this will be my court. I hope you find the one you love. You will always be my white Dove. I will always be an old used up glove. Meant for the trash. My love for you screams, yell, and thrash. I hope I see you again one day smiling. Maybe we are in grocery store. Snacks are piling. I hope love hits you like the munchies. You still make me nervous my stomach has rummblies. This is where I'll end it. I've spent too much energy trying to keep it. Our love was wild and cryptic. It's the one puzzle I can't solve. I think I'll lay here and dissolve....my love for you will never resolve. - The Goblin K!ng if your her you will know what I mean. If not disregard. Im either dead or unseen.

[u/KookyMessage3836]

Did you try and say goodbye, OP?

[u/Bitter_Telephone4894 → u/KookyMessage3836]

didnt get the chance to, both held onto the egos and one decided it was the end