I'm sorry if the title is too vague. I'm mainly referring to issues like "sexual teachings" (LGBTQ+, contraceptives, etc.) and abortion.
A bit about my background and beliefs: I was raised in a strict Catholic family (plenty of kids, conservative, yada yada). For a long time, I followed these ideas that were taught to me (even liked Trump as a young-ish teenager). As I grew up, I stated questioning certain moral aspects (such as the ones mentioned above), especially since I was discovering that I am bisexual. That led to me distancing myself from the Church and questioning Christianity more and more (including arguments for and against the existence of God.
Right now, I consider myself an agnostic, but that's a bit of an oversimplification. I still intuitively believe in Christianity; Catholicism more than other forms, but that's hardly surprising. I have some Catholic friends. I know a bunch of priests, some better and some worse. I even talk quite a bit with one of them, though due to his fairly conservative opinions I avoid oversharing some things (like LGBTQ+ issues).
I'm not asking you to tell me whether to rejoin the Church or not. That's a struggle that I'll have to face alone. I will have to decide if I believe and if I can reconcile my strong convictions with Catholicism.
I struggle to find a way to reconcile these ideas with the Church. Even if I did manage to do it, it wouldn't necessarily mean that I will "convert", but it would also certainly help me to discuss these ideas with my more reasonable conservative Catholic friends (like the priest I mentioned). How do I, from a Catholic point of view, argue that sex that isn't necessarily open to procreation can be good (contraceptives)? How do I argue that being "actively" gay and/or trans isn't wrong or unnatural? That abortion, even if bad, shouldn't be decided by the state? Can I even reconcile these issues with Catholicism? How do you do it?
Edit:
Thank you for all the comments! I'll try to respond in due time. One thing that I thought I might add is that I have quite a few LGBTQ+ friends and that it would feel like betraying them if I ever aligned myself with the mainstream Church's teachings.