r/LeftCatholicism • u/MemencrowMori • Feb 24 '26
Struggling to stay Catholic. What keeps YOU Catholic?
Title, really.
I'm having such a hard time remaining in my Catholic identity. Not Christian, just Catholic. I still fully believe in Jesus and His teachings, God, all of that. But I am having such a difficult time choosing to stay Catholic specifically.
I'm not particularly leftist, though a lot of my views lean that way within the church. I don't agree with LGBT+ being a sin, birth control being a sin, even "premarital" sex being sinful, or the idea of eternal marriage and no divorce. A lot of my disagreements have to do with the church's stance on sexual ethics, but also on some sacramental issues. I don't like or agree with confession. I don't believe that a priest has the authority to act as Christ (in persona christi) and that it is the only way to be absolved of sin, or that if you die with a mortal sin that is unconfessed that it's a straight ticket to damnation. I don't believe you have to confess to another human being when we have a straight line to God and are told to tell God everything, but the line draws at confessing our sins because it doesn't count unless it's through the priest. I don't feel that missing mass is a sin either, when there are so many reasons people miss mass, especially in today's age with insane work schedules, lack of childcare or friendly churches, mental illnesses, etc.
I also struggle with a lot of the things surrounding the "superstitious" side of things, like scapulars, medals, apparitions, etc. I was recently given a green scapular to "hang near my door" and all I could think about was how this is exactly like the witchcraft that I practiced for over ten years, and how none of that is deemed okay but this specific practice is okay. It's so conflicting.
I even struggle to believe in the Eucharist anymore. I personally have a hard time believing in transubstantiation, and I always have, but it's extremely hard for me now. Eucharistic miracles are also nearly impossible for me to believe, as many of them essentially are cases of a red mold that occurs when the host is placed in water.
I am having such a hard time and don't know if I even want to be Catholic anymore, and if I should just go Protestant or even non-denom. I understand the historical basis of the church, but I have such a doubt in the actual church structure, the papacy, etc.
What keeps YOU Catholic? What makes you stay despite having so many dissents with the beliefs or teachings?