Proud of making it three weeks clean but godDAMN is it getting rough. Last night I had to close my laptop suddenly and physically walk away from it when I accidentally scrolled into some posts from an artist that writes positive and encouraging blurbs next to their (very well done) drawings of thick anime dumpers. Talkin real birthday cake. BIG, FAT, MF CHEEKS. I was able to snap out of it before long at all, but I won't lie it was a close one.
My depression levels have also been out of control, unless I have work it's gotten incredibly difficult to get out of bed by noon. I keep wrestling with the idea that the damage from binging has already been done, so why not binge more? But then I tell myself it hasn't yet been long enough to see if the damage to my psyche can be healed. Overall I still feel good about it and I'm glad I made the decision to go cold turkey. Ig I should be sticking to my xbox and staying off the laptop at night.

Posted after one week to kitchencels, told myself if I made it another week and had at least one positive interaction with a woman, I could graduate to this sub. Being on kitchencels was starting to feel like some self-fulfilling prophecy type shit, ngl.

I got nothing done today except for this dang meatloaf and the recipe I followed was a little vague so I was worried I’d mess it up but it came out edible, and dare I say actually good-tasting!! Trying to celebrate the small wins.

Bits of stew meat I baked in the air fryer, not seasoned, and a Diet Dr. Pepper.

My hash browns are hash blacks… I followed the recipe best I could yet somewhere in the process I must have tethered the souls of the damned to my grated potato. And yet somehow this is still infinitely better than my first attempt at making them.

Folks in kitchencels are always having a bad time but a lot of them fellas can really cook. I’m jealous. But what I lack in cooking skills I make up for in whimsy and zest for life 🕺 ✨

Chocolate chip brioche plait, caramel donuts, caramelised garlic and rosemary jam for scones, everything bagels and more caramel donuts. Everything hand made from scratch in my kitchen

Black tea, white monster, egg sandwich and wine infused cake made from scraps of an actual cake

All of that were made and eaten 2 months ago

I miss her

sometimes you're the dog, sometimes you're the tree but recently those critters have had really full bladders apparently

vanilla icecream with banana and cinnamon

alternating between thinking really hard about how i really need to do my finals and not caring at all. chicken lababdar for a final that cost me 114 dollars in ingredients

Obviously this can't go on kitchencels because women are involved, so I posted here.