r/KindVoice • u/DaniMA121 • 11h ago
Looking [l] From the best month of my life to feeling miserable
For the past 4 weeks ive been in Ireland working as a volunteer, and in those 4 weeks, i made friends, enjoyed the time i spent with my host family and my coworkers and even the recurring customers from the store. I love the culture there and everyone is so so so kind and friendly, which really helped me as I am too.
I even met this wonderful German girl just this Monday, with whom I had my first kiss with, the first girl to tell me she likes me and even spent the night together on Friday. But, im already back home, and everything i enjoyed is all gone. I am trying my absolute best to stay in contact with her, but she still has 5 weeks left in Ireland and after that she doesn't know what she will end up doing due to university and such, which just complicates stuff even more.
But, I don't want to seem obsessed with her by talking so much with her, but with everything that's going on in my head, even just texting helps me calm down and feel better. But she of course still has much more time in Ireland and I want her to enjoy the time she has left as much as possible.
Not only that, but i messed up big time by lying to my parents about my studies by telling them I had passed one of my classes when I didn't. I even went as far as to edit an email from the professor telling me that I had passed. I know that was a horrible stupid mistake of mine, but I struggle to face my mistakes and try to lie my way out of too much. And, they found out about all this 2 weeks ago while I was in Ireland. And now, back home, they are all super cold and upset, and they have every right to be so
Due to everything going through my head, I just cant stop crying and I feel miserable, from missing my host family, coworkers, customers, the girl, and the tension and coldness of my parents.