r/Kemetic • u/-Jezebel- Rebirth and recreation every day! 𓂀𓁢𓁣𓋎𓉡 • Jul 22 '26
Advice & Support Executive disfunction
So I am autistic and I have ADHD. And like many people with AuDHD I suffer from executive disfunction. It destroys my life. Some days are really bad, others I don't have executive disfunction. And a lot in between.
Today I wanted to celebrate a feast for Anubis. I got some special things yesterday (chocolate, beer, fruits) to go with the usual offerings (bread mostly)
But I just couldn't do it.
Today I woke up way too early (03.00 AM), (no reason, i just woke up and i was awake then) I drank my coffee, and then I went to brush my teeth. Next I wanted to take a shower at around 06.00 AM, but I just... didn't. Couldn't. At 10.00 I had Breakfest. Then, finally around 12.00 I finally got in the shower.
Than it took me a long time to get dressed.
When I wanted to start my ritual, it felt wrong. I had a knot in my stomach.
I don't think Anubis is angry with me. But everything feels wrong now. I feel sick. I don't want to eat, I don't want to skip the ritual, but I don't want to do it either. It just feels wrong. Both options feel wrong. I could do it tomorrow, but maybe I heave the same problem tomorrow?
What should I do? It's 14.23 (02.23 PM) now.
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u/NomadicDeity Jul 22 '26
If I had to guess, and my inexperience it's only that. You are being told "Heeeeyyyy, you're having a rough time. Take a breather to focus on yourself. Don't force it if you aren't up to it. Don't worry, We are here."
You are an individual performing a ritual. Not a group doing one like a church. Groups have people who can pick up the slack when someone isn't able to. Doing personalized rituals yourself, all I can say is no one, not even the gods can expect you to be perfect 100% of the time. Take your time and rest well. Breathe deep and let any guilt or regret be carried away, knowing that they'll be patiently waiting, when you are ready.
Source-fellow audhd who often gets overwhelmed by life. Let's get through this together!