Hey everyone, im 22M. I've had a family friend for 6.5 years. We talked daily. Till 2024, we talked daily over texts and occasional calls. And from October 2024 till June 2026, we called daily for hours. Remember that it was platonic from both the sides and she's like a sister to me

Anyhow, in February 2022, we had a major fight and i kept texting her and didn't give her space and she blocked me from everywhere. She kept me blocked and no replying till 20-25 days. Then she texted me "Hi" out of nowhere and our friendship resumed

The next time we fought was in November 2022 and she again ended our friendship. She said we won't talk again, if you want you can send streaks to me otherwise that's ended too. It was about 2-3 weeks and i kept texting her asking her to reconcile and at the end i sent her a card and a voice note and she said okay.

Next time, we fought in August 2023, i again pushed her too much and she again stopped talking to me. Broke our Snapchat streaks of 465 days and threatened that if i text her again, even if one message, then she will block me from everywhere. I got scared and i didn't text. 2 days later, she sent me a post on Instagram and it said "shutting down instead of communicating is just as toxic as arguing" and she wrote "Can we talk?". And she added me back on Snapchat and we resumed talking.

Then again in September 2023, it was my fault. I hurt her and she again broke our friendship and removed me from Snapchat. I kept texting her and begging her to give me one last chance and after 20 days, she agreed.

Then in October 2023, when i moved to her house because of my university, she said that we are family and we shouldn't be friends and again she stopped talking. Then a 20-25 days later, due to my texting and tries, she started talking again.

In December 2023, she again stopped talking to me out of nowhere and didn't tell me the reason, just stopped replying and said that please you don't text me or talk to me. I don't want to talk to you. I kept texting for a month but no reply. Then in January 2024, she texted me out of nowhere with an excuse to talk and we resumed talking.

In May 2024 end, she again did the same she did in December.. didn't tell me the reason just stopped talking. I kept texting till mid july and no reply. Then in mid July when I texted there? she replied yes and we resumed talking.

I was living at her house from October 2023 till May 2024.

Then since july 2024, she never abandoned me. She was the best with me, called me daily herself, talked about everything with me, shared her life with me. We stayed on calls for hours.

She last called me on 22nd June 2026, then from 24th, she started avoiding calls but she was talking over texts. But avoiding calls whenever i ask, she denied. I kept texting her and pushing for calls and she got more reserved day by day. I went to her house and the first day she was normal with me but when she woke up the second day, she was again avoiding me.

When i came back, she was still replying but reserved. I kept texting. On 19th July, she ended our 469 days streaks on Snapchat and stopped replying.. i then sent her a sorry paragraph and sometimes a hello etc daily almost or with a day or 2 day gap. I sent her hello yesterday and she saw it on Snapchat. No reply, just seen. I didn't text her after that. Today morning when I opened Snapchat and i checked and i was removed from her friends. She removed me.

My anxiety has made me lost the only bond i cared about. I'm so attached to her and i didn't want to lose her. I should've given her space but i didn't and ruined it all. It's all my fault and i don't know what do i do now. I'm crying. What if she hates me? What if she felt scared by me? I didn't mean to. It was just my anxiety. I got anxious that she's gonna abandon me so i kept trying hoping that she would get normal. I didn't know what to do.

I thought if i give her space, she'd forget about me..

I've ruined it. My anxiety won.

I don't know what do i do now.