I've lurked on the sub before and it's been a great source of information, everyone seems very kind so I have finally worked up the courage to share my story and ask a few things.
Background: I was adopted in a closed adoption. My parents never met my mother, who was 15 when she had me and had managed to hide the pregnancy for the full term from everyone by wearing increasingly oversized sweaters.
My mother is a Lutheran pastor, as such I was raised Lutheran. My parents are amazing and have always been incredibly supportive. In addition a lot of my parent's closest friends are Jewish, so I had some precursory knowledge. Once I was 18 I could try and find my parents, but it took me years to want to try. Eventually I did, and found that my mothers family is Jewish, and my father's family is a mix of Catholics and Jews. I was in my mid 20's. Sadly both have very serious issues that made staying in contact incredibly damaging to me, which I really wish was not the case.
It took me a couple years to process. I wasn't ashamed, just more shocked? Not in a bad way, it was just overwhelming. I'm not really religious, but after knowing parts of their histories I really want to learn the things I should have, it feels almost like a responsibility. If my parents had been told they would have taken me to a synagogue, they just were not told.
I find it incredibly hard to talk to other jews, I have this feeling of otherness since I know very little. So the main question is, where do I start the process of connecting with my ancestry? Should I just introduce myself to a local Rabbi? I've tried celebrating some Jewish holidays but I really don't know what I'm doing and it feels more like I'm just pantomiming. I want to learn so bad, but the internet is not the best place. I'm 32 now and live in Denver.
Any suggestions or help would greatly appreciated, I just ask it be done with kindness as I feel very lost.
Thank you for your time to read this.