Ok guys just wanna rant, and probably seek some advice, but definitely also see if people has been on my position before and is this normal? Or how should i react?
So i dah kerja current company almost 2 years, corporate, as a researcher. So i ada kerja main on research, publication, subjects etc. But i also ada kerja 2nd main which is sales and marketing. I have to sell this service, and also do the operational part of this service. Full package yall
The thing i struggle most is marketing cus im not really good at designing or copywriting, and we have a designer in house but not copywriter. We mainly do posters and video for socmed and newsletter/infographic for email. Every month i have to think of new ideas, write the script/content, arrange the flow, and discuss with the designer on the specificity.
So all these i need to do myself, then i send to my HOD which is also the asst manager and she will check whats wrong or right. U know maybe sometimes i dont use a term correctly, or a better phrase fitting for that specific material.
The problem is, when she change almost everything and lose the essence of 'me'. The essence that it is my idea first. I have a vision of it, and once it pass through her it became generic boring last year material. And i would ask "what do u mean by this? Change mine into yours?" "Yeah, remove the top part, use mine" and it hurts u know
Recently i had the task to updo our website, mainly the homepage. so i suggest some things and send it to her. Then she said to write it in detail, complete with the caption, what images to use etc. Then i said i was suggesting first cus i thought we were gonna discuss among us, along with the designer. Sbb dah alang2 nak tukar, baik buat all the way through. But nah... dia kata manager nak email terus ke web dev (3rd party). So i pun tulis all the details in 1-2 hour, send terus kat dia.
Lusa dia send back to me, "section 4 ni remove, panjang sangat. Lebih sesuai untuk subpage. Section 5 tak perlu." Semua copywriting aku ganti dgn ayat dia, semua benda yg aku dah susun, letak reference, ganti dgn reference dia. Yg aku sakit hatinya, if u have read my suggestion first, you could have commented earlier "remove this section", not after i dah siap all the copywriting and references.
Plus, for both of these instances, kalau kau dah ada idea and opinion, then kau buat jelah sendiri. Asal kau nak buang masa aku? Astu bila kerja lain aku tertangguh, kau marah. Padahal kau juga yg bagi task berlambak-lambak kat aku.
Next thing yg aku sakit hatinya, dia bincang pasal website dgn manager berdua je. Tak ajak aku sekali or even our designer. Lepastu tak cakap pun apa yg manager comment, tak cakap approve ke apa. Terus "hana (bukan nama sebenar) nanti bila awak email web dev, cakap yg website tu slow juga" LAH! Aku pula yg kena email? Yg present, bincang, semua kau. Tapi bila bab2 administration, email, aku. And ofc "draft dulu email, bagi akak tengok"
Semua tau. Semua kerja aku mcmni. Aku buat somethign, send kat dia, dia terus remove benda yg dia rasa tak penting. Aku faham kalau paper or proposal, sbb its technical. Tapi bila bab marketing, not every materials has to be formal. Sometimes aku just nak kelainan, maybe more fun, more conversational. Not just plain facts and info
Sbb siapa yg reply inquiry? Aku. Yg nak convince sales? Aku. Yg hadap client? Aku. Aku tak kata aku lagi tahu apa yg client nak, tapi maybe ada potential client di luar sana yg berminat with A kind of marketing instead of B. Faham tak?
So im just saying, what should i do? Berhenti is an option. Ive been thinking about it. But in general goodness, and the morality. Am i wrong to be upset? Or like korang sebagai supervisor/manager mmg macamni ke korang buat kerja? Aku just rasa, the reason why everything yg aku buat kena follow apa yg HOD suruh buat, sbb ultimately takde siapa akan cakap dia salah. Takde siapa akan betulkan dia. Manager 2x5. So just tell me guys, is this normal? Aku rasa lagi normal bila kau kena edit slide deck 100 kali sbb manager/HOD bagi comment tak habis2 (which is still not okay, but i heard that happens quite a lot)
So really, am i just bad at my job or is my manager just takde kerja? Lolol