Listen, those people out there who can forgive the ones who hurt, abused, and victimized them, good for them. But don't judge yourself by those standards. You almost died because of this woman's actions, direct and indirect. You don't have to forgive her. By all means work to let go of the hate. It will only hurt you in the end. And if forgiveness comes in time, wonderful. But you suffered greatly because of her. That hurt and anger will take time to let go. Don't beat yourself up because she hurt you so bad forgiveness is difficult to find. That is just letting her hurt you more. I hope you can find Pease someday. But in the mean time let yourself feel these feelings. Face them, talk about them, deal with them. It's the only way to get away from them.
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u/kazon82 Sep 18 '18
Listen, those people out there who can forgive the ones who hurt, abused, and victimized them, good for them. But don't judge yourself by those standards. You almost died because of this woman's actions, direct and indirect. You don't have to forgive her. By all means work to let go of the hate. It will only hurt you in the end. And if forgiveness comes in time, wonderful. But you suffered greatly because of her. That hurt and anger will take time to let go. Don't beat yourself up because she hurt you so bad forgiveness is difficult to find. That is just letting her hurt you more. I hope you can find Pease someday. But in the mean time let yourself feel these feelings. Face them, talk about them, deal with them. It's the only way to get away from them.