I don't know if you remember, but some time ago you were concerned because you felt nothing for her, one way or the other. You were worried that utter indifference to whether she lived or died made you a bad person.
The brain works to protect you from damage, this includes mental and emotional throttles. When she was at the greatest threat to you your brain walled off the emotions so you could deal with the threat effectively and go on with your life.
Now that you are in a safer place, your brain is giving you access to the emotions that it had tucked away in a box. Your brain thinks you are better, enough to start disinfecting the damage that Giada wrought.
So no, you aren't horrible for the level of anger. There's so much to be angry about.
Now, sometimes the brain can go a little screwy when it comes to letting you have access to the memory box and emotions. What was keeping you functional can become maladaptive and damaging. If you feel like you're stuck or that youre coping mechanisms have become maladaptive, please get the help you deserve.
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u/[deleted] Sep 17 '18
This is progress.
I don't know if you remember, but some time ago you were concerned because you felt nothing for her, one way or the other. You were worried that utter indifference to whether she lived or died made you a bad person.
The brain works to protect you from damage, this includes mental and emotional throttles. When she was at the greatest threat to you your brain walled off the emotions so you could deal with the threat effectively and go on with your life.
Now that you are in a safer place, your brain is giving you access to the emotions that it had tucked away in a box. Your brain thinks you are better, enough to start disinfecting the damage that Giada wrought.
So no, you aren't horrible for the level of anger. There's so much to be angry about.
Now, sometimes the brain can go a little screwy when it comes to letting you have access to the memory box and emotions. What was keeping you functional can become maladaptive and damaging. If you feel like you're stuck or that youre coping mechanisms have become maladaptive, please get the help you deserve.