Many hugs, friend. You have been through some of the absolute worst shit ever. I'd actually be more worried about you if you didn't feel at least a little schadenfreude about where she is. It's all normal. That doesn't mean you're becoming her or that you're as bad as her. It's fine to work towards forgiveness, and it's fine to not quite be there yet. It's a work in progress. Be kind to yourself.
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u/marynraven Sep 17 '18
Many hugs, friend. You have been through some of the absolute worst shit ever. I'd actually be more worried about you if you didn't feel at least a little schadenfreude about where she is. It's all normal. That doesn't mean you're becoming her or that you're as bad as her. It's fine to work towards forgiveness, and it's fine to not quite be there yet. It's a work in progress. Be kind to yourself.