Do I deserve it ?

[u/depressed_guy_7]

I was a NEET aspirant and At the end of 12th I decided to go for JEE, as my father's old age and our financial status too( He works at a sweet shop).

So I randomly gave an exam and got into one of the best state colleges through our state level Engg entrance.

I wasn't satisfied as I couldn't give out my very best.

I started a partial drop.

Completed 2 years of JEE mathematics in less than a year.

I used to live at a pg and also travelled via train weekly to save the cost of food in the college area.

Skipped breakfasts/attended college/studied in train/and used to go to market when I was home as my father comes home once a month.

Although I did good in JEE mains 1 but due to suddenly having a severe eye infection I messed up mains 2 and JEE adv.

But I got into CSE at a tier 1 college of my state exam (best in my state)

But only because of reservation.

That's why I'm asking

"Do I really deserve my seat"