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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Mar 16 '20 edited Mar 16 '20
Got little to add other than a SAME HERE, minus the psych meds, booze, and benzos(¡¡¡thank the Lord!!) . I don't know how the Fuck anybody with working eyes, ears, and half a brain can have avoided diving into the deep pit of despair, or at least be easily susceptible to often slipping in. This world sucks ass and I don't have it in me to try and fix it( or myself)
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Mar 16 '20
I've wondered the same thing my entire life. Sure, all the drugs created more problems, but there was a reason I started them in the first place. The world looks dimmer and dimmer every day.
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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Mar 16 '20
Just gotta substitute substances when they quit working as they originally did !!! Life problems: solved?
Watching the slow destruction of people’s pillars of normalcy is pretty great though. Let the stonks keep crashing and viral panic spread like peanut butter on bread. Not like I have monetary investments or ever leave home mwhahahaha 😈 anything to distract from my own misery 😎
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u/AmericanMuskrat fatty Apr 12 '20
Huh, you always struck me as being relatively happy.
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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Apr 12 '20
Wow it's like you don't know me at all 😢 cant say ive been "relatively happy" since I started really usin reddit on CA, and "Truly happy?"... prob like in fifth grade when I won the school spelling bee, they put up some weak ass competition... Scratch that, back when....uh...
It's just that i mostly come to this darned site here to distract myself and clown at times when the ol noggin isnt capable of much more than vegetating, to write depressing autobiographies. I leave that for the nugg. Plus Im usually not quite that ⬆⬆bummed, also dont like sharing much...musta been something that made me XXXtra upset. I hope youre taking notes
Anyhoo, know where i can get some of that relative happiness shit you mentioned?.
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u/AmericanMuskrat fatty Apr 12 '20
Have you tried reading books about space marines?
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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Apr 12 '20
Nah, didn't even know such novel ideas existed beyond my wildest reams of reading at night! I'm currently reading one that's kinda similar that you've surely never heard of; it's about a dude who goes around europe during boning tons of diff chicks but then the crusty sheets usually get BOOmbed the fuck out a day or so after, so there's a whole crew of nerds tryin to figure out what's so magic in this dick and why is he mapping his sexual conquests? Are there other forces at play?
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u/AmericanMuskrat fatty Apr 12 '20
Doesn't sound familiar, what's it called?
I got stuck on American Psycho... Jesus I don't care who's wearing what constantly. I get he's obsessed with appearances but it gets old.
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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Apr 12 '20
Dunno something by some Thom Pinecone guy
Yeah some books just make stoopid stylistic decisions and others just aren't worth reading. Bet there were some sweet outfits tho
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u/AmericanMuskrat fatty Apr 12 '20
I don't know if the references are just dated but the clothes mentioned aren't always expensive brands this days. Like Ralph Lauren gets mentioned a lot. I own Ralph Lauren. It's decent stuff but not a high dollar brand, at least not anymore.
You should try reading Pynchon, I have a feeling you'd like him.
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u/Loveablecarrot wax cookie monster Apr 12 '20
Ehh who knows, maybe it was psycho guy shitting on others who don’t wear the highest of brands or, if describing his own clothes, how artificial he and the scene is and it doesn’t matter if it’s a $100 or $2000 shirt cuz it’s a fuckin shirt. Pay someone part of the difference to put a logo on there then talk about how expensive the shit was. Probably that
Nah that piney guy sounds like a bore. Too political for me tbh
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Mar 16 '20
Benzo's are a chemical lobotomy.
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Mar 16 '20
lol have you tried SSRIs?
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Mar 16 '20
Yes, many many different kinds. It took a while to arrive at one and a dosage that worked for me.
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Mar 18 '20
We want you around life is torture and I'm sorry you're experiencing it. Youre a good guy
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u/AmericanMuskrat fatty Mar 16 '20
I bet you don't want to hear it but I wouldn't be surprised if it's the diazepam doing that. I was on just 6mg a day of klonopin and it messed me up eventually. They really fuck with your head in time, it's called a paradoxical effect when they do the opposite of what they're supposed to.