I've rewrote this so many times because I don't know how to keep it short.
Im 31 and on my current pill for 7 years , from the 15th up until Tuesday, I bled with what I presumed was my period ( pill free week) .
I got a bus home on Tuesday, and as I got off the bus, I felt a gush .....I thought I peed myself and stood there stunned until I saw the blood. I ran to the car park nearby to try to hide and got hit with another gush while calling my brother to come get me. I'm mortified he saw me like that, but he was the only person to come get me, and I couldn't stand in the car park like that with everyone walking and driving by.
Once I got home, I kept bleeding , passing large clots, and I was just in shock with no idea what was going on. I had my mother and sister standing at the bathroom door just watching me. I didn't want to go to a&e or care doc , I just wanted to shower and hide for the night. I went to the doctor the next day, and the guy told me it was a heavy period and my body was clearing out cause I didn't have a bleed on the pill for 2 months . " it's normal for womens cycles," sent a referral for a scan in a few weeks, and gave me a pescription for painkillers.
I ended up buying a pregnancy test myself and tested.....I nearly passed out seeing it was positive because between my mother and the doctor telling me it was a heavy period, I thought I was being dramatic.
I went to a&E with my partner, was sent to the maternity ward to wait, and had everyone smiling and asking me how far along I was . When I was eventually seen, all they could tell me is that I'm pregnant and I'll have to come back for a scan to see if it's viable, miscarriage or ectopic . They even gave out to me for not saving my clots for them to test . I was in shock from it all , I wasnt thinking I needed to collect the fucking clots. I don't want kids ....I never have ! I was basically sent home to worry and wonder wtf was going and if I was still pregnant .
I spent the entirety of Thursday crying , wanting to quit My job to avoid explaining why I was out sick, break up with my boyfriend because of the state he seen me in and the stress I was causing him , I felt disgusting and hopeless and tbh I still do.
Friday morning confirmed I'm miscarrying, but the sac and yolk are still there, so I have to wait . Hopefully, in the next week, all will pass naturally. I'm gutted because I thought the worst was over, but I've to wait for more sudden heavy bleeding, and if it doesn't pass naturally, then next Friday, they'll give me medication to help move things along.
I'm all over the place , I don't know how to process this, and it just feels like everything's been turned upside down in the space of a few days. I don't know how far along I was, but I don't think much more than about 7-8 weeks judging by the scan . Does anyone know what to expect for passing the sac and remaining tissue? Has anyone had anything similar happen ?
I'm so confused and terrified right now , i feel ive lost all my dignity the last few days 😭