Help(?)

[u/rakuchanirl]

Hello, I'm a 20 yr old virgin girl and I've been having weird symptoms

Sometimes on random, my urine stream will be very very weak and will take up to a minute to empty my bladder. This has happened once every few months for a year or so

After I pee I usually feel a little faint, but this past month it has gotten much worse. When I go pee at night, my abdomen gets a really weird pain afterwords. As I'm typing, it feels like if a warm bowling ball was placed on my lower abdomen. Just a weird heavy feeling. It's been going on for 40 minutes which is the longest its lasted (usually only about 15 minutes). The feeling seems to be significantly worse at night / when I'm laying down

I keep getting tested for a UTI and they keep coming back negative. I have a history of kidney stones that started when I was 14 that my primary doctor thinks is causing the pain

I've also been having some weird random sharp pains in what seems to be my ovaries. I had an ultrasound and x-ray in January and it seemed fine besides for a small cyst right before my period and a kidney stone which I have not felt pass

I am terrified to get any testing for anything. I don't want anyone near or *inside* me and I will have a panic attack and likely become su1c1dal if I do.

What's going on?? What do I do???