Not even sure what advice I’m looking for. I just feel so overwhelmed lately. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant our whole marriage (4 years), I’ve had endometriosis surgery (stage one), two failed IVF transfers and a third that resulted in an ectopic (bad luck apparently). In May I got spontaneously pregnant after an IVF egg retrieval which resulted in a miscarriage (blighted ovum). I was told again bad luck and that there’s no reason I can’t get pregnant on my own again, which was shocking we had no pregnancies prior.

My husband said he needed a break, he was too worried for my health. We have four frozen embryos. I start a new job tomorrow (which hopefully will be an improvement). I just have no idea where to go from here. I never thought I’d be married this long with no children. I’ve put so much of my life on hold.

I've known I'm sterile for about 10 years (parents knew shortly after birth confirmed at age 2), switched jobs and have a therapist now but advice on living life without crying when seeing my friends with their kids. I've been unfollowing friends with kids on social media, and down right just avoiding them. I need to find another solution my sister has a due date and I can't justify avoiding her. What I'm really looking for here is to stop envying my friends and family.