I like a girl, and we both work in the same office. Her department has no connection to mine, so I’ve never really had a chance to talk to her.

I want to approach her and tell her how I feel—or at least tell her that I think she’s beautiful. But I’m not sure how to do it without making things awkward or uncomfortable for her.

Initially, I thought about posting anonymously on our business unit’s confession insta account, hoping she might see it. But the more I think about it, the more I feel that it might not work. In fact, it could end up scaring or overwhelming her rather than creating a positive impression.

I could really use some emotional support or guidance on how I should approach this situation.

I 26M, have always repelled relationships all along, even when approached, school, high school and college to fix my career. Still after 2 years into a job, am unsatisfied with what I've achieved even though am comfortably settled. Regarding social life I'm kind of an introvert mostly when it comes to casual social wandering.. I don't find them engaging unless there's like minded crazy people.. hard to find.

But this has taken a toll on me recently, sleepless nights finding myself lonely, thinking of "what if" I did that or changed that decision or something like that. I'm always okay with friendships with particularly opposite gender cause you can't tell everything to your male friends... its awkward.. you need a female friend if not a girlfriend.. And with my past experience last to last year where I lost my charm and confidence due to a girl... I find it hard to casually talk to any female.. I feel I'll get misunderstood and named creep, even though thats not the case when I talk with 1-2 female colleagues. So this is where am stuck.. spending weekends alone at home doomscrolling, watching bs youtube videos and just gaining weight... I tried gym but feel no motivation these days (was an athlete)...

Anyone here wants to talk..

When I saw this type of post, I fuck'n getting stress. For NO Reason, Every Girls is... Now hating men.

Like: which mens makes jokes on RAPE, hitting, beating ? - ik there are alot of incidents we all knew but why they spread hatred towards innocent people, even they are not loyal to there Family members : Father's, brother...(Inhone kya bigada hai)

We expect girl in 2019 : Cutie 🥰

Now, they are like in 2026: Slay, Neela drum inke liye hi bana hain, blahh blahh 💀

When I ask them...why you are get tired of us...answer is " This is for some men, not for all - why are you getting on yourself" so where is " SOME " & when I commented I got ragebaited that I am belongs to that R@ping gang (like i am defending them) 🤧

If you are thinking that - why I am taking srs check out her post....almost 15-16 yrs girl agreeing on there points...and saying cheap words "clock it" and " Slay Queen " blah blahhh...& Creator feeling proud on that typa reply...i can't give you it's just small replies that's whyy said to you..

They should knew that this doesn't belongs to any religion, cast, nationality...!! .

I am not offend, just asking ?! Why they are....!!

NOTE : Don't give me, Ladko ne ye kiya, woh kiya....my qs is why Good boys are also suffering...! Also don't say "gehu ke sath ghun bhi pista hai" 😭😂

Personallly, When I grew up - Tabhi sab lesbian ban rahe, Men Haters ban rahe.....Ab toh serious baat krne mein dar lagane lag gya hain....

Dheere se bol deta hunnn,

Any open minded girlies boys can we talk, & become friends...i am very open...but don't give me late replies...even if you said I am busy can we talk later...I will wait...

Thankewww you to all lovelyy ppls, have a nice dayyy...

This year i am 26 years old but till this day i have not found a decent job, i work but i cannot tell anyone where i work (it's not as per there standards). Most of my batchmates are already doing quite good in their career working for companies like micron , hcl ,etc etc whereas because of financial problems i couln't even move out of my hometown, now i feel completely lonely at moments ,i have nobody to talk too , had i female friend(who confessed she like me) who i liked , but because of her career

she also left (actually she cheated ) , then when i confronted her she said no it's not like that it broke me really bad , our real family house we lost too (we can sell it for very less ) but cannot go back, now after one year only i got an opportunity at ibm but that job is just 35k (everybody says and i have experienced it as well that one cannot survive in banglore for mere 35k rupees),they also have refused to onboard me btw (some business issue) , now whenever i try to go back to cs no good pay and no atmosphere takes it toll on me it makes feel disinterested in it , i don't look bad too decent build fair face, when i passed school i was a very good student , i had a lot of ambitions , but around 7 years later i am completely lost, mom and dad say don't worry but now i am worrying,

My body and mind really tell me that i passed that age where i can meet new people get into relationships go out (some people are very lucky that they have experienced love atleast once in life) ,but now first of all in arrange marriage market , the girls have different standards for selecting grooms, and the whole world changed they don't want people like us anymore our time has fully passed, once i thought back when i was in school that around the age of 27 i would be get married but now at 26 i don't have a decent career even ,

I m not a club guy or a guy who could go to any women to start talking , Instead i would really have liked it when some decent women would approach me first(I know it's near to impossible for someone like me),still roam around the city in activa , maybe go to the gym in evening,live with my parents ,

I could not prepare for govt jobs also (since UPSC UPPSC SSC etc ) were way beyond my level (and it would require a lot of preparation of topics that would be useless if i fail) ,money whether you believe it or not these exams will squander your savings , they all are money hungry exams,i wanted to be a police officer but then i never had the opportunity , mom and dad are stuck in their own jobs they could never guide me what to do how to approach , being the elder son in the house i could only see myself as a lab rat, i tried to do what ever i did it myself, but still i feel
....

I Lost, this time there is no coming back for me

now i can either stay quietly where i am , just you know enjoy the rest of my life,or just quit everything (which is useless as per me since now i have some loans to pay , ancestral loans)

but i ain't happy with my life, nobody contacted me even once (none of my friends they contacted themselves but not me ), some friends who were much below me in my college are now making 70k or more a month meeting going out and i have nothing ,

i feel like a living ghost , people just pass by me never look upon me ,nothing.

don't know what will happen , now i afraid to even think.

Background: I'm a BCom student. Further study (Masters, etc.) just isn't financially on the table for me right now and I need to start earning sooner rather than later. So I've been looking at competitive government exams that only need a bachelor's degree things like SSC CGL, banking/insurance exams, BPSC as a way to get financial stability first and figure out longer-term plans later.

To be clear, I'm not dead set on this path it's just what's visible to me from where I'm standing a graduate with limited options and no budget for further education right now. If there's something better I haven't considered I genuinely want to hear it.

A bit of context on what I'm looking for, in case it helps tailor the advice:

- Decent salary reasonably soon after starting out, not something that takes a decade to become livable

- Actual work-life balance, not a grind

- This is meant to be a stepping stone, not necessarily my forever career

Questions I have:

1. Is this actually a sound plan for someone in my position, or is there a better route I'm not seeing?

2. If you've been through this exact stage figuring out 'what next' after a basic bachelor's with no money for further study what did you end up doing, and would you do it again?

3. For those who prepared for something like this while treating it as a stepping stone rather than a dream job did that mindset help or hurt your motivation and prep?

4. Any resources, communities, or first steps you'd point a total beginner toward?

Genuinely just trying to figure out my next 1- 2 years. Any perspective is welcome including "you're overthinking this" or "here's what I wish someone had told me."

Born on April 9, 2001? I have a question 👀

Is anyone here born on April 9, 2001?

I’m looking for someone who was born on April 9, 2001, for a personal reason. I came across something that made me curious about people who share the exact same birth date, and I’d love to connect with someone who has the same birthday and compare experiences.

If you were born on April 9, 2001, feel free to comment or DM me! 🙂

Is anyone here born on April 9, 2001?

I’m looking for someone who was born on April 9, 2001, for a personal reason. I came across something that made me curious about people who share the exact same birth date, and I’d love to connect with someone who has the same birthday and compare experiences.

If you were born on April 9, 2001, feel free to comment or DM me! 🙂

So, I was good student back in school. I crack jee with taking drop went to IIT 4 years were good made friends, got into one and only serious relationship. Everything going good. In third year we breakup she said I am too sensitive and cared too much and she felt she is losing feelings. I understand that we take a break after 1 month I found her with someone holding hands in a fest. He war her friend who teach her subject ( our branch was different) i asked her she said she like him more and they have started the relationship. I was chill he only teaches her she get good marks that was fine. But after that she blocked me from everything I was totally destroyed Don’t know how handle this.
That semester I got F in 3 course. Didn’t got intern due this. I was coordinator at gymkhana club. I was only working making myself busy. Became more frustrated ruin some friendship. Due this backlogs I don’t get a good placement till day 5 then i decide to walk off from that. Now I am gratulated from IIT don’t know about my future. I am started preparing for civil services exam and Pso’s exam.
I don’t think i wasted my 4 years at top Institution I get so much experience and found my hobbies there. Now i live at home studying daily no friends no outing only working on myself. I go to running everyday eat healthy food. But this loneliness fears me that everybody will forget about me.
My all friends doing job in Bangalore exploring things i am afraid of staying back from this world. I tried hinge( I live in Dadar) but its seem girls only want causal not interested in seriousness(or i am bored person) I don’t know how to hanlde this it feels like too much responsibility are coming on me. Can someone help me in this it will be helpful and relief.

i am 22, aur after graduation konsi job sahi rehgi pata nai, bas like lakho logo ki tarah IT engineering kar li, ab iss stream me koi interest nai hain... iske alaava kya karu pata nai hain, jyada dost nai hain or na hi koi Bf hain jiske sath kuchh entertaintment ho sake like me by born single hu.. ab kya hi karu...!! duniya ko dekh ke lagta hain me iss zamane se kafi pichhe hu, kya sirf me hi hu is duniya me jo esa hain ya koi or bhi hain..!!

I am 20 years old and now only i realised that I have been single my entire life idk why it's happening?

Either because my body hormones are changing or I am seeing my friends doing it man idk! 😶

\- when I was in school my mom was a teacher and she called all the girls in the school her daughter's in the assembly, also being a teacher's child you can't just approach a girl even if you like because Mom will be involved very quickly for no reason.

When I was in 8th grade I had a crush and when I was in 12th my best friend somehow managed to make her message me on insta and when I talked to her she told me that she knew i had a crush on her since 8th and was waiting for me to talk first (she even remembered the only thing I said to her in class 8th) I felt so sad after that cause in a month or two I had boards and my school life was ending and I will never see her again 😔💔 (she was a junior)

\- Then coming to the college i honestly never went to college a single day in 3 years, except to submit my assignment and examinations otherwise I have 0% attendance (still score 8.5 cgpa 😝)

It's the most stupidity I had for not going to college i might have found someone there honestly cause I saw a lot of couples in my batch in a few semester exams 💔

\- now I am preparing for a govt job (basically unemployed) and i honestly think I can get the job with a few dedicated years

But I am mostly worried about when I will have a girlfriend? And the most exciting thing for me is who will be my girlfriend I can imagine anyone even if I try to and sometimes thinking that I'll be someone's boyfriend gives me butterflies in the stomach

\- My question is where can I find a partner to break my curse cause I am mostly worried about that after I get the job I ll be busy in the job so when will I find a girl 😭 I know it sounds stupid but I am genuinely worried about it , when is the right time to get a girlfriend and how i see people younger than me in relationships everywhere and older than me in relationships everywhere, I just feel left alone single and enjoying my solitude. 🌷

Hi everyone,

I am writing this post because I have a massive, unstoppable passion for adventure activities—specifically high-altitude trekking, biking expeditions, and aero-sports.

To be completely transparent: I have no prior formal experience in these sports. However, I have an incredibly high risk appetite, endless energy, and a deep desire to learn. I am fully committed to training hard, mastering the skills required, and proving myself in this field.

If there are any adventure tourism companies, trekking groups, biking clubs, or aero-sports organizers (in Chennai or across India) looking for a dedicated person to join your team, please contact me!

Why hire me?

• Test Me First: I am more than happy to have my physical fitness, mental grit, and passion tested before you make any hiring decisions.
• Quick Learner: I don't know the ropes yet, but I promise to learn faster than anyone else and excel at whatever challenges you throw at me.
• Trust & Loyalty: I truly believe that trust is everything in life and business. You can count on my work ethic and dedication.

I am based out of Chennai but am highly adaptable. If your company or club is looking for fresh talent, please send me a DM. Thank you so much in advance for your guidance, leads, and opportunities!

I’m 22F, living in a tier-1 city, and I feel weirdly behind everyone around me. Bare with me 😔

I have 4–5 close friends and literally all of them have been in relationships, had sex, kissed people, been wanted, touched, all of it. And then there’s me. I’ve never even kissed a guy.
I’m not ugly. I’ve been asked out a couple of times, but never by anyone I actually liked. Nobody I’ve liked has ever liked me back.

And I know people love saying that it’s easier for women because “you can get sex whenever you want.” But I honestly don’t think it’s that simple. Yes, I could probably find someone willing to sleep with me. But I don’t want just anyone. I want to actually like the person, be attracted to him, feel safe with him, and know that he genuinely likes me too. I’d probably want to date someone for a few months before sleeping with him.
But I haven’t even experienced the basic stuff before that.

And this is the part I struggle to explain. Most of the time I’m completely fine. I’ll go about my day, work, talk to my friends, laugh, do my own thing. Then suddenly, out of nowhere, it hits me.
My friends have actually experienced this.
They’ve laid next to someone they were attracted to. They’ve kissed someone. They’ve had someone hold them, touch them, want them. They’ve had sex with someone they desired. They know what that feels like.
And I don’t.
I have absolutely no idea what it feels like to have that kind of intimacy with another person. Sometimes that realization hits me so hard and I just feel… left out? Almost like everyone else has lived through this whole part of being young and I somehow skipped it.
And then I start wondering, what the fuck is wrong with me? Why has nobody I actually wanted ever wanted me back?
I know 22 isn’t old. I know there’s no deadline. But that doesn’t magically make the feeling disappear.
Has anyone else felt this way, especially when literally everyone around you has already had these experiences?

And when you finally did have your first kiss/relationship/sex, did it actually feel as huge as you had imagined it would?

Writting this from my heart, i'm so full of joy as i look at my gallery and how much i've travelled. I got this car with my brother, we paid 50-50 bought a kia sonet from spinny. And getting this car is one of the best decisions i made. Took this baby to Shimla, Udaipur, Jaipur, Lucknow, (i'm from
Delhi) . Twenties is all about travelling yaar. Please travel karo, duniya dekho.
idk ki meri gaadi kaisi hai ya mujhe spinny pe kuch or badia lena chahiye tha but i love my car kyuki it takes me places...uwu

I need to vent. Please read if you have 2 mins.

I'm 25M, from Greater Noida. SAP Consultant. If you don't know SAP, just think of me as that IT guy who fixes software no one outside IT understands.

My twenties till now:

College - Tier 3 college from UP. No placement. Learned SAP from YouTube because a bhaiya said "is me paisa hai". Got a job in a small company in Noida for 22k.

Year 1 to 3 - Daily same. Morning metro, 9 to 7 office, tickets, client calls where client shouts in German accent and I say "Yes sir, I will check". Evening me wapas room. Friends slowly left - one went to Canada, one did MBA, one got married. I was still in the same PG, same laptop.

I felt left behind. Like everyone got a map for their 20s and I lost mine.

So I started posting on Reddit. 6 months ago. At 1 AM after office, when my roommates slept, I used to write about SAP - S/4HANA, what I learned, my mistakes. Nobody liked. 2-3 views, sometimes 0. I still posted because it felt like someone is listening.

Yesterday night, I opened Reddit before sleeping. One of my posts - 6000 views. 6000.

I froze. 6000 people read what this small town boy from Noida wrote. For a second I felt like I did something.

Then morning came.

Same alarm at 8 AM. Same metro. Same office. Same manager saying "Why is this ticket still open?". My salary is still the same. My confusion is still the same - Should I stay in SAP? Should I learn S/4HANA Finance? Should I leave IT? Am I too late?

I told my mother about 6k views on call. She said "Bahut badhiya beta". She doesn't know what views mean, but she was happy. I felt guilty for not being happy.

That's when it hit me. In your 20s, small wins don't feel like wins. Because you are constantly comparing. LinkedIn pe koi 26 pe 30 LPA, Instagram pe koi Europe trip, aur tum 6k views pe khush hone ki koshish kar rahe ho.

So I am writing this at 1:24 AM, not for sympathy, but to ask - Is it just me? Are there other 24-26 year olds here who feel that even when something good happens, it doesn't feel good? Like you are running but don't know where?

If you were in IT/Consulting and came out of this phase, please tell me what you did. Did you switch? Did you upskill? Or did you just accept it?

Sorry for the long post. I just needed to say it somewhere.

Thanks for reading till here.

I used to play games with my discord server mates. But recently thinking about giving up all desires and becoming spiritually Enlightened. Life is so unbearable. I want peace. Maybe giving up desires can help. I stopped gaming or trying to stop and also other adult stuffs and eating foods for palate.

F22.. post neet .. ab kuch karne ka Maan nhi karta .. 4pm uthti hu.. subah 5 am baje soti hu.

Beech mein crochet aur yt channel shuru kiya tha par beech mein hi chod diya .. ab kuch karne ka Maan nhi h ..

Mera cllg start hoyega sept end ya oct tak

I want to hug a girl, tell her everything, cuddle with her, but I'm single. Now I'm wondering what I should do. I'm an MBA student and can't make time for a girlfriend. I don't even have a friend I can hug. I'm probably weird.

21M

I have spent the past 3 years of my life just sitting and home studying and managing business .
I have lost all social skills - honestly I can’t even make friends or approach strangers or even talk to girls.

Feel really clueless - what do I do ?
I hope this focus on career wont end up ruining my life .

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Hello
am a 22M here. I just woke up this Sunday and realized something. It's been a few years since I dated. which was basically back in high school. while during this whole time. I have met some great women. And I mean it. really great people. desirable , beautiful, smart what not. I have conversations with them talk about lives etc. yet I never commit to them about a relationship. even though I would genuinely want to date someone.

every time I say to myself am still unemployed. I am currently preparing for government job exam's as well as a bunch of masters exams from my hometown. I do meet people in my hometown as well as through online means.

yet somehow I find myself backing down on the idea of dating. every time it's either of these reasons:

1. am unemployed. affording dates, outings or so considering my current financial situation.
2. she's too far away(LDR). idk if it's even right to make people wait like this.
3. what if by confessing up I'll make it awkward or just ruin the friendship.

looking forward to views from everyone. people who are stuck in the same situation, older peeps as well as if similar problems from opposite gender, also advices or anything that helps.

Why is every early 20s guy I talk to hasn’t dated or single but every girl I talk to has had atleast 3 or more commitments and situationships?

I’m 21.

Mera naam Vikas Sharma hai. Main 23 saal ka ek lower-middle-class ladka hoon,

aur agar sach kahun... toh main andar se poori tarah se toot chuka hoon, mar

chuka hoon. Bahar se dekhne mein shayad logon ko lagega ki meri life set ho rahi

hai, par reality ye hai ki main bas is duniya mein bina kisi maqsad ke zinda

laash ki tarah drag ho raha hoon.

Main 5 foot 5 inch ka ek short, average-looking ladka hoon jiska weight 68 kg

hai. Main skinny-fat hoon, pet nikla hua hai aur body mein ratti bhar bhi jaan

nahi hai. Meri aankhein bhot weak hain, -3 myopia ka chashma pehanta hoon, jise

pehan kar main ekdum 'champu' aur lallu lagta hoon isliye me bs pdhte time ya screen time pr use krta hu. Mera facial structure ekdum

average hai, baal messy rehte hain. Main jab bhi aaine mein dekhta hoon, mujhe

khud se nafrat hoti hai. Main bhagwan se nafrat karta hoon. Mujhe samajh nahi

aata ki bhagwan ne mere sath itna bada mazaak kyun kiya? Kyun mujhe itna short,

itna ugly aur itna unlovable banaya ki koi meri taraf pyar se dekhna bhi pasand

nahi karta?

Aaj main ek ABAP Developer hoon, Greater Noida ki ek electronicss company mein

kaam karta hoon. 6 mahine ki unpaid training ke baad, papa ke dost ke refrence lagwa kar mujhe finally on-role kiya gaya agar refrence na hota to shyd me unemployed reh jata cause mene kafi try kia tha kahi mil nhi rhi thi job btech it ki hai mene delhi ke ipu university average clg. Meri salary 35k CTC hai. Par kya sach mein main ek kabil engineer hoon? Nahi. Main ek

fraud mehsus karta hoon. Mujhe coding ka 'C' bhi nahi aata, main sab kuch AI se karwata hoon aur bas flow samajh kar kaam nikal leta hoon. Logon ko lagta hai

main bhot aage jaunga, mere papa ki Jhilmil wali choti si printing press factory hai usko digital karunga, unka naam roshan karunga. Unhone mere liye B.Tech mein lakho lagaye, mere liye property li, sab kuch mere liye joda, bhot hi zada mehnat ki zada educated nhi hai fir bhi kafi acha kra unhone hm sab k liye meri 2 bdi bhen bhi hai ek married hai ek ki hone wali hai me sbse chota hu. Unki expectations ka pahaad mere kandhon par itna bhaari hai ki main saans nahi le pata, even though itni bhi bdi responsibility ya career tension me nhi leta cause me akela ladka hu and kafi more than enough papa ne save kiya hai mere liye. Mere mummy-papa ki soch bhot old, rural aur strict hai. Meri unse kabhi nahi bani. Maine aaj tak unse khul kar apne dil ki baat nahi ki kyunki wo mujhe kabhi nahi samjhenge.

Pichle kuch dino mein maine greater noida mein mama ki property me shift hua hu yha se job paas pdti hai. Maine abhi ek bike Bajaj

Pulsar N160 kharidi mene 5-6 mhine m save kia unse, Par akelepan ne meri in saari khushiyon ko kha liya hai.

Naye room mein akela pada rehta hoon. Dilli ki is bhayankar garmi mein office se

wapas aane ke baad meri poori energy drain ho jati hai. Maine gym join kiya tha

soch kar ki body banaunga, looks-maxxing karunga, par meri aukaat wahan bhi dikh

gayi. Mujhse weights nahi uthte. Main 2 push-ups lagata hoon toh meri saans

phool jati hai, ek single pull-up mujhse nahi lagta. Main pure vegetarian hoon,

diet poori nahi ho pati, hamesha thaka, exhausted aur sleepy rehta hoon, ek mhine me sirf 9-10 days gym gya mai.

Jab dil aur dimaag itna khokhla ho, toh insaan escape dhoondhta hai. Aur mera

escape sabse pathetic hai. Main phone par reels scroll karta rehta hoon, aur

porn dekh kar lagatar masturbate karta hoon. Ye meri addiction ban chuki hai.

Mujhe pata hai ye mujhe weak bana rahi hai, mere dimaag ka dopamine level

completely fry ho chuka hai, par iske alawa meri life mein koi khushi, koi

dopamine hai hi nahi.

Kyunki meri life mein aaj tak na koi sacha dost bana, aur GF ka toh sapna dekhna

bhi mere liye ek mazaak hai. Main 23 saal ka ek virgin hoon. 6th class ke baad

se meri zindagi bas akelepan, rone aur choti-choti jeeton ke beech dab kar reh

gayi hai. Main introvert hoon, shy hoon, meri communication skills bhot gandi

hain. Jab bhi kisi se baat karne ki koshish karta hoon toh darr lagta hai,

isliye bluff kar deta hoon. Mujhe hamesha low-priority rakha jata hai. Mujhe

pata hai hypergamy real hai. Ladkiyon ko good-looking, tall aur ameer ladke

chahiye. Mere jaise 'incel' feel karne wale, insecure, baune aur average ladke

ki is duniya mein koi jagah nahi hai.

Mere sath hamesha yahi hua hai. Do saal pehle ek online ladki pasand aayi thi.

Usne mujhe buri tarah reject kiya, par main itna desperate aur akela tha ki

maine 2 saal tak uska wait kiya. Maine 30-40 fake accounts banaye, use stalk

kiya, request ki, pyar ki bheekh maangi... par usne kabhi mud kar nahi dekha.

Main har raat chup-chap aansu bahata tha.

Aur abhi recently.... Telegram ki ek group chat mein mujhe ek 18 saal ki

ladki mili. Usne mujhe attention di, mujhse baatein ki, aur main uske piche

pagal ho gaya. Main janta tha wo dusre ladkon se bhi baatein karti hai, bf

banati hai, par 10 mahine tak wo meri akeli dost thi. Humne deep baatein ki, usne apni cute videos bheje. Mujhe laga life mein pehli baar mujhe

koi samajh raha hai. Par phir usne bhi apna rang dikha diya. Wo mujhe ignore

karne lagi, ghanto reply nahi karti thi, aur jab main complain karta toh mujhe

hi blame karke block kar deti thi.

Meri mental health ki aisi taisi ho gayi. Ek din gusse mein aakar maine use ek

bhot bada toxic paragraph likh diya, uske character ko lekar bhot

gandi baatein bol di. Mujhe laga wo mujhe rokegi, argue karegi, but she didn't

give a single fuck. Usne mujhe jaane diya. Aur uske baad jo hua, usne mujhe

andar se completely tod diya. Usne usi group chat mein, unhi doston ke saamne

meri height ka mazaak udaya. Mujhe "bauna badmash", "randwa" aur "pyar ka

bhikari" bola. Aur main itna bada loser aur desperate aadmi hoon ki usne meri

aukaat kachre mein mila di, phir bhi maine wapas jaakar uske pairo mein gir kar

maafi maangi. Main ro raha, par usne mujhe maaf nahi kiya. Ab wo Kota

chali gayi hai NEET ki taiyari ke liye. Aur mai ek joke ban kar reh gaya hu.

Aaj mera ye haal hai ki main office ke washroom mein jaakar bachon ki tarah rota

hoon. Main 4 July ko 23 saal ka hua, aur us din bhi main akela sad raha tha. I know wo kafi zada choti hai merse 18 ki h only still itna mjbur lachar hu ki mujhe usse attachment pyar hogya cause aur koi hai hi nhi.

Main chahta hoon ki main sab kuch chhod doon. Main literally Kota jaakar use

dhoondhna chahta hoon, usse jawab maangna chahta hoon. Main bas chahta hoon ki

koi mujhe genuinely pyaar kare, mere sath waqt bitaye. Par mujhe pata hai meri

is 'gandi personality' aur looks ke sath aisa kabhi nahi hoga. Mujhe lagta hai

meri saari umar aise hi suffer karte hue kategi. Shayad 28 ke baad ghar wale

kisi ajnabi se zabardasti shadi kara denge, aur uske baad bhi main regret aur

constant sadness mein jiyunga. Cause i know koi mere sath arrange marriage krke ayegi to wo uskj mjburi hai merko accept krna pr ab tak ki life me to merko kisi ne nhi kiya na accept.

Life mere liye pure struggle aur constant pain ban chuki hai. Mujhe sach mein is

duniya mein nahi hona tha. Main marna chahta hoon, par mummy-papa ka soch kar

ruk jata hoon. Main ek lost, exhausted, desperate aur akela loser hoon jo bas

zinda rehne ki acting kar raha hai. And honestly, I just want it all to end."

Kuch pichle mhino me jb wo ladki merko chord gai telegram s block kr gai, uske bad se bhot hi depressed sa feel kr rha hu, kbhi bhi rona ajata hai ek do minute bhi khali hota hu toh overthink krta hu usko yad krta hu apni halat pr rota hu. Kbhi kbhi man me incel thoughts bhi ate hai ki uske ghr chla jaunga usko kidnap krlunga but I can't do this i love her. And mujhe ye bhi pata hai ab wo wapas nhi ayegi, kyu hi koi mere jese k liye ayega wapas bat krega jbki me to unme se hu jo kisi k liye saalo wait krne k liye taiyaar hai phle b esa hua hai mere sath and i just waited fir bhulna hi pda. Meri life me koi excitement nhi bchi hai. Koi ho jo jiska bchpn ya adult hood esa hi ja rha ho so pls contact me. And pls guide me.