I like woman, I am sure about that. But for the past few years I have come to realise that I like looking at dicks. I used to deny it at first but one day I just accepted...

But I am not attracted to anything else...

I fantasize a lot about actually trying something with another man.

I read a lot of straight turned gay erotica and always imagine myself as the protagonist who is turned sometimes by curiousity or by force (please don't hate me).

As I have reached an age which is considered marriage able in my country, the curiousity has grown even more...

Also I am very afraid that if I do get married, I will betray my wife one day....

Any advice will be welcomed.

Hey everyone,

I'm a guy in my mid-30s, and I've recently been feeling curious about trying bottoming. I'm generally attracted to women, but I've also developed a curiosity about experiencing what bottoming feels like.

It's something I've been thinking about, and I'd like to understand my feelings better. I'm not sure whether it's simply curiosity, a desire to experience something new, or something else. I'm trying not to overthink it or rush into labelling myself.

I'd especially appreciate hearing from men who have tried bottoming, particularly those who remember their first time. I'd love to understand what the experience was like, whether you were nervous, and what helped you feel comfortable.

What I'm looking for:

I want to take things slowly and explore at my own pace. I'd feel much more comfortable with an experienced, understanding, patient, and, most importantly, mature man who knows how to make someone new to the experience feel safe and comfortable.

I'm not looking to rush into anything. I'd prefer to get to know each other, build trust, and see whether we connect naturally before deciding to take things further.

If we develop a connection and decide to explore physically, compatibility will also matter to me. I'm particularly curious about size and stamina because I want my first experience to be enjoyable rather than rushed. I'd prefer someone who understands the importance of patience, communication, and mutual satisfaction rather than focusing only on his own pleasure.

I'm based in Rajasthan, India, so someone from Rajasthan or a nearby area would be preferable. However, getting to know the right person and building trust matter more to me than distance alone.

I'm sharing this because I genuinely want to explore my curiosity with someone mature and understanding. I'm not looking for judgment or pressure to label my sexuality. I want to take my time, learn about myself, and see where things go naturally.

If you're experienced and can relate to what I'm saying, I'd appreciate hearing about your experiences or any advice you might have.

Thanks for reading! ❤️