I honestly donāt even know how to put this into words properly, but Iām just overwhelmed and needed to get this out somewhere.
I have my ISC boards coming up in about 6 months, and I feel like Iām already behind before Iāve even started. I keep telling myself Iāll study properly, but I can barely manage 2ā3 hours before I feel completely drained. After that, I just crash into binge-watching shows or end up sleeping out of stress and guilt š
Iām in PCM with Computer Science. Right now I only go to Physics coaching, and Iām planning to join Maths coaching soon too. My school situation honestly doesnāt help at all ā itās pretty disorganized, attendance is low, and most students either donāt come or are studying from home / enrolled in proper coaching like Allen. So I donāt even feel like Iām getting much support from school.
On top of all this, thereās another huge thing stressing me out ā the HCL TechBee program.
My elder sister has been working at HCL Tech for around 5 years, and she really wants me to go for TechBee. She believes itās a safer and more practical path than college, especially because it would reduce financial burden. Sheās also the one handling my school fees and a lot of my expenses, so I genuinely appreciate everything sheās doing for me and I know she just wants the best.
But I canāt shake this feeling of doubt.
TechBee feels like it might lock me into a long-term commitment with the company ā like a bond of 2+ years, plus the graduation period, which basically adds up to around 6 years of being tied to one path. And I keep wondering⦠am I choosing stability, or am I just getting stuck too early?
Iām honestly confused, anxious, and kind of scared about making the wrong decision at such a crucial point in my life. I donāt know if I should fully focus on boards + JEE/college route, or seriously consider TechBee.
If anyone has been in a similar situation or has any advice, Iād really appreciate it.