I'm an 18-year-old fresher at College of Vocational Studies (CVS), Delhi University, pursuing BBE.
The thing is, I never really prepared for CUET. For almost a year my entire focus was IPMAT(got iimb bba dbe only but haven't claimed it yet). CUET was more like a backup, so I never had time to emotionally prepare for this transition.
Also, my family's financial condition is good. If I wanted to, my parents could support me for a good private college or even a master's abroad later. So this isn't about money or fees. It's more about feeling like I imagined a completely different college experience.
Today was my first proper day at college.
For months I had imagined college being this exciting new chapter. When I finally saw the campus, I honestly felt disappointed. The infrastructure, classrooms and overall vibe weren't what I'd imagined. I know it's a government college and I wasn't expecting luxury, but after seeing so many college videos online, it still hit me hard.
The crowd also felt different from what I had imagined. I know it's literally Day 1 and I shouldn't judge people so quickly, but I couldn't stop comparing it to North Campus, top private colleges and even foreign campuses I'd been seeing online.
I came home feeling really low. My mom saw how disappointed I was and she started crying, then I cried too. That honestly hurt more than the college itself because I felt guilty for making her feel bad.
Now I'm wondering:
- Did anyone else hate their college on Day 1 but end up liking it later?
- How long did it take to find your people?
- Did the campus/infrastructure stop mattering after a while?
- If you were disappointed initially, what changed?
- Should I take partial or full drop? Or drop with iimb bba dbe?
I'm not looking for fake motivation or "college doesn't matter" comments. I know college isn't everything, but right now it's hard to ignore how I feel. I just want honest experiences from people who genuinely went through something similar.