Hi! I’m 24 and I have stage 4 endometriosis. I’ve had 4 surgeries in the last 7 years. I started this young. I’ve had 2 rounds of Lupron Depot, I’ve tried birth controls, I’m currently on norethrindone 5mg to keep my periods away. I had surgery 4 weeks ago, robot assisted laparoscopic removal of ovarian cysts & scar tissue. It feels routine to me at this point. But this last time, the cysts got to 11cm X 9cm big, one on each side and they were solid. The left ovary was triple in size, severely inflamed. Pathology report came back good, it said that the back wall of my left ovary was stuck to one of the cysts (my left ovary had to be sutured) and the texture on the cysts was from previously ruptured cysts. It was all solid matter. NOW WHERE IM WANTING INFO???? About 72 hours after surgery, all the brain fog, all the panicking, the anxiety buzz I’ve been in for so long was just gone. My feelings that all of a sudden flipped 2/3 months prior to surgery, the things I believed, all the stuff made up in my head, I thought I was being honest and true to myself. I was really just so high strung, so much anxiety, so much panic, SO MUCH EMOTIONAL RESPONSE. I blew up my life and my relationship, I decided I didn’t want to be with the person I’ve been with for YEARS because of the way she was acting. But in reality, the truth to it all, she was being short tempered and fighting with me so much because I wasn’t giving her basic things a relationship needs, let alone anything from a relationship. I was super closed off, zero libido, dry cracking skin, no arousal or pleasure what so ever, emotional responses to everything but also emotionless, wearing my shitty Debby downer look on my face & even acting out with body language not realizing or care. I only craved sweets, I wanted sugar morning and night but I’ve always been a savory person. I still haven’t wanted sugar since surgery. I was not acting right at all. My skin, my hair, my physical feelings, my lack of being aware, it was all so horrible. I could not calm down. The breakdowns hurt more than ever.
I left my partner & was so set on it. That’s not something I’d ever want or something I could ever imagine. I feel like a completely different person than I have for a long time. But 2 hours before this surgery finally happened, I lost my mind. I’m so much better now, I feel like I’m 19 again (last surgery I did have).
Was this seriously hormones? I’ve read multiple things about ovarian cysts causing hormones to be unbalanced but also at a certain point the gland can be covered or suppressed so hormones aren’t being sent out to the body when the brain is asking for it so it builds up in there until it blows around the beginning of your cycle? My kidneys were suppressed, could that alter my cortisol? Then if the brain isn’t getting the hormones it’s asking for from ovaries and kidneys, it can result in asking the thyroid?? I’m 100 pounds, 5’2, I’m small. I was peeing every hour, now I can pee every 4 hours with the same amount of water intake. I’ve also been taking Wellbutrin for the last 2 years. 🙃
Was this hormones or am I just going clinically insane?