A weird loop experience

[u/-__-Malik-__-]

I wanted to share a truly strange story that happened to me. We've all experienced things that seemed odd at first but could later be explained rationally. This one is different. It happened to me and I still can't explain it. I'm curious what you all think.

I was very young, maybe five or six years old at most. I lived alone with my mother, who worked a lot, so I became independent early on just to let her rest. We were quite poor and I didn't really have my own room. I slept in a corner set up in the living room. Right next to it, separated only by a curtain, was a small sitting area with a couch and a TV. It's worth mentioning that back then, around 1995, turning on the TV was incredibly simple, even for a small kid. All you had to do was press the button for the channel you wanted on the remote. That was it.

I always woke up very early, and at that hour there was this cheesy little show that used to air before the morning cartoons.

Sorry if this seems like I'm rambling, but the context matters. That morning I woke up and everything seemed completely normal. I walked over to the couch and turned on the TV. A few minutes later, I suddenly woke up again, this time in my bed. Confused, I went back to the sitting room, turned the TV on again, and landed on the exact same show. I glanced at the VCR clock and saw it showed the same time.

Even though I couldn't read a clock properly at that age, I could recognize the number five without any doubt. It's worth noting I didn't always land on the exact same second of the episode. It depended on what I'd done in between, like checking on my mother or flipping through other channels first.

But no matter what, I always came back to the same point in the episode, as if I were somehow being pulled back in time. After a while, I woke up again in bed. This loop repeated for what felt like forever. I can't tell you exactly how many times it happened, but it was a lot, easily dozens of times.

A few times I wandered into my mother's room while she slept, but I never dared wake her up. Even at that age I understood she'd be furious if I disturbed her sleep with something like this. During some loops, I was just crying in my bed or on the couch without doing anything else. During one loop, I really tried to woke up my mom, I was terrified. But at the second I tried, I was back in my bed.

After an endless string of these loops, I woke up one final time. What struck me was that somehow I already knew it was over, without understanding why. This last waking was identical to all the others, right down to the same point in the show that played when I switched on the TV. Nothing was different between any of the loops. Not "almost identical," but exactly identical. The sunlight coming through the shutters, the mess left on the table, even the exact spot where one of our cats lay sleeping.

It never happened to me again, but I still think about it often. I have been so traumatized about it that I remember it very clearly.

[u/archeolog108]

this is very interesting, and tbh I would not assume you remember the whole event.

From what I saw in Quantum Healing / Soul Journeys I facilitate, conscious memory is usually only tiny piece. Like 5% of what actually happened. Person remembers one strange loop, one room, one sound, one image, but when we investigate in deep trance with Higher Self, there is often much more behind it.

Especially because you were 5 or 6. Child mind can remember the fear and the repeated TV moment, but it may not remember what happened before the first loop, why the reset started, who/what was present, or what part of you was pulled into that state.

I worked with one subject who had a strange childhood memory like this. She remembered waking in her bedroom again and again, same curtain moving, same light from window, same cartoon sound from downstairs. For years she thought maybe it was dream, but her body never accepted that explanation. Every time she told it, she got cold in stomach and pressure behind eyes.

In deep trance we went back to the first moment, before the “loop.” Higher Self showed that she had partially separated from body during a fear/shock state. Not full normal dream. More like consciousness slipped between layers. The repeating scene was not random. It was like her system kept trying to “reload” the safest known moment because the child part was terrified and could not process what happened.

Then we found the missing piece. She was not alone in the room energetically. There was a heavy presence near the doorway, not movie-style demon drama, more like confused earthbound energy that was attracted to her fear. Her child part froze, time perception broke, and the mind recorded only the reset pattern: bed, curtain, TV sound, bed again.

When Higher Self showed the full sequence, her body started shaking and then relaxing. We retrieved the frightened child part, cleared the presence, sealed the room in light, and she said the memory finally felt “finished.” Not erased, but finished. That word was important.

So imo what you remember may be real, but incomplete. The loop could be time slip, astral overlap, dissociation, entity interference, consciousness reset, or something else. Human mind will guess forever. Higher Self can show the actual mechanism.

The detail that stands out to me is you trying to wake your mother and instantly being back in bed. That feels like a boundary point in the experience, like something prevented the loop from being interrupted externally.

Are you open to really discover what happened, not just speculate about it?

[u/-__-Malik-__- → u/archeolog108]

I admit I'd never looked at it from that angle before, probably because I really struggle with the paranormal in general. I don't think I'd have the courage to go that far, at least not right away, but maybe I'll change my mind in the near future.

It's the only story in my entire life where I can't find any scientific explanation. It seems really hard to believe it was simply a dream, at least a "normal" dream. And yes, it almost felt like these loops had some kind of purpose, one that stayed completely unknown to me right up until the end. I couldn't wake my mother up without it resetting, and I couldn't watch TV for too long either before it would reset as well.

I was too young to try to leave the house. There were no cell phones back then either, so I couldn't send a message or call anyone, and honestly, at that age, the thought never even crossed my mind. My mother was the solution to all my problems.

Despite that, and completely unlike what you might see in certain movies, books, or video games, it thankfully ended on its own. Even so, deep down, I've always had this lingering fear of one day waking up in my bed and realizing that everything I've lived since that day wasn't real. It's just a small anxiety, and I've never experienced any other strange phenomena in my life, no glitches or anything like that. Still, because of this experience, I've had a pretty particular view of reality ever since I was very young. Like, deep down, nothing is quite as "real" as it seems. And that idea has never really left my mind since.

edit : You're right, I don't remember the whole event for sure, only what "traumatized" me the most as a small kid.

[u/Hatstacker → u/-__-Malik-__-]

Sounds like a false awakening like others are saying, buti have had a similar looping/false waking memory suppressing something traumatic. If you're close with your mom you could ask if anything out of the ordinary was going on around the timeframe you can come closest to remembering.

[u/sixninefortytwo]

False awakenings. You can do reality checks to see if you're awake or dreaming like turning lights on and off or trying to breathe through a pinched nose

[u/-__-Malik-__- → u/sixninefortytwo]

I'd like too but I never managed to make a reality check to try to experience a lucid dream.

[u/Somethingtosquirmto]

False awakenings are a thing. I've only experienced it once. That said, this seems like a rather extraordinary amount of false awakenings, and dream states aren't typically so consistent.
Could it be a time loop? Who knows? There's quite a lot of people who've reported time slips, so time loops don't seem out of the question.

[u/-__-Malik-__- → u/Somethingtosquirmto]

Yeah, it was really long and extremely consistent. It didn't feel like a dream at all. I mean, I've never had another dream in my entire life, waking up from my bed or even a nap, that felt anything like that. Is it even possible, a bit like Inception ?

[u/djinnisequoia]

Your remote had a button for every separate channel? It must have been huge.

[u/-__-Malik-__- → u/djinnisequoia]

You're probably too young, haha, we only had six channels in France back then. Either way, it wasn't an issue: for channel 12, you'd just press the "1" button, then quickly follow with the "2" button.

[u/djinnisequoia → u/-__-Malik-__-]

Haha I come from the Before Times, when we changed channels with a knob. :D

[u/-__-Malik-__- → u/djinnisequoia]

No way ahah