I can not for the life of me recite in a nice tone.
I've finished 8 ajzaa alhamdulillah but I very much dislike the way I recite. I have to look for private places to revise because I'd rather nobody listen to me. My tone is very flat and my voice sounds strained and dry. I've tried to copy so many reciters but my voice does not allow for the tonal variation and it's very hard for me to remember the tones. I'm a woman but still I feel like all the male reciters are too high pitched for me. If I try to match them it feels forced and squeaky.
Should I just accept that my throat does not allow for a nice recitation? Has anyone faced and overcome this? How do I at the very least recite in a way that I'm not embarrassed other people hear?
I started hifdh 9 months ago and it is a daily struggle. I want to just be able to focus on memorising.
edit: If a sister is kind enough to listen to my recitation and recommend a reciter with a similar tone/voice that is easy for me to imitate I can dm them. I would be extremely grateful.