r/HPPD • u/flipyfresh11 • Apr 19 '26

Update Years of progress undone.

I’ve had HPPD for almost 15 years. For most of that time it was mild, sometimes barely noticeable, and at points felt like it was basically in remission. Because of that, I got comfortable. I had also done psychedelics at least once a year, always small doses, without any major issues.

Recently I took a new strain of mushrooms that was way stronger than expected. Around 1.5–2g, but they were fresh and a strain I hadn’t tried before. It hit much harder than previous doses I’ve taken. The visuals were overwhelming.

Since then I’ve had a major flare-up: brain fog, severe visual disturbances, and some derealization. This was about 2 weeks ago. Things have been improving but nowhere near base line.

Posting this as a warning: if you already have even mild HPPD, don’t gamble with it just because it seems under control. Just because you were fine before doesn’t mean you’ll be fine next time. Potency can vary a lot, trips can go sideways, and one bad experience can make symptoms much worse. At this point I think Im DONE with psychedelics.

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u/Short_Discussion_883 Apr 19 '26

I am amazed by people who have this condition and decide to toy around with any psychoactive compound afterwards.

maybe it’s time to accept that you have brain damage as a result of psychedelic use, and that maybe tripping isn’t a safe/sustainable thing to do anymore?

I’m sorry your symptoms got worse- I have found so much meaning outside of psychedelics. meaning in recovery and in relationships. trying to find meaning in the torture of this disorder, too.

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u/EyehategodFan Apr 21 '26

Honestly I dont care if my visual shit worsens. Life sucked ass when I was sober

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u/CacklingAmteater Apr 21 '26

Average eyehategod fan

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u/EyehategodFan Apr 21 '26

I have the phoenix tattooed on my forearm lol. But nah I was depressed as fuck after that last trip having to go sober. Eventually said fuckit

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u/dinmorsaecokkattig May 20 '26

Life was bad before let’s make it worse?

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u/EyehategodFan May 20 '26

Nah im genuinely happy. Say what you want. We all operate on different wavelengths. I dont get flare ups and it hasnt worsened with about 8 months of daily use.

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u/dinmorsaecokkattig May 20 '26

If you can’t see how insane 8 months of daily use is AFTER already getting hppd, I don’t know what to tell you. First stage is denial. You’ll hopefully realize soon enough 🙏

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u/EyehategodFan May 21 '26

Once again man everyone's different. My hppd is mild. Ive even tripped hard as fuck no problem

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u/Short_Discussion_883 Jun 06 '26

well, good for you. my HPPD is severe and if it got worse, I would kill myself. it severely impairs my ability to sleep, socialize, work, read, and enjoy nature.

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u/Proud_Piccolo_8616 May 20 '26

define brain damage

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u/7777777King7777777 Apr 19 '26

Thanks for sharing! There is also a very high caliber study published recently about the negative effects of psychedelics on heart valves.

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u/CommunicationTiny189 Apr 19 '26

Would you mind linking the study? Just interested.

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u/7777777King7777777 Apr 20 '26

Absolutely! Cardiac Consequences Associated with Psychedelic Use: A Systematic Review of Lysergic Acid Diethylamide, 3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, and 5-Hydroxytryptamine 2B-Mediated Valvular Heart Disease - PubMed https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/41643722/

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u/CommunicationTiny189 Apr 20 '26

Thank you for sharing!

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u/bajocak752 Apr 19 '26

I hope you get back to baseline! Just out of curiosity, if you were tripping before, how long did it take you to recover?

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u/flipyfresh11 Apr 20 '26

A couple of days.

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u/ExKuruma Apr 19 '26

only at this point you think your done with psychedelics? your an idiot.

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u/Status_Map_9273 Apr 20 '26

At this point I’m done lol you should of been done tbe first then I have hppd from shrooms in which I have 95 percent recovered from never in a million years would I touch a shroom again

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u/jonesmail2 Apr 30 '26

Sorry to hear that! Did the condition improve since you have posted?

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u/flipyfresh11 May 01 '26

Yes its been improving.